Last burst.

Three more weeks.



The past week had been another normal week.
Already don't know this is the how many times I've said that already.
But I guess 'normal' will have a new definition soon.
Soon enough, hopefully.

Spent my energy carefully in the first three days of the week, went through platoon battle course with ease, then had two days of rest.
Nothing much to talk about for the training portion, yet Thursday had been a meaningful day.
Hahaha, talk about meaningful.

Took half day leave on Thursday to leave in the afternoon and went to Hilmi's house to play xbox.
This is just a midpoint to our destination though.
And when the time's come for us to go, we left his house towards Harbourfront.
Vivocity to be exact.
And to be more exact, towards Sentosa Cove.
First time visiting Sentosa Cove.
And it totally blew me away.
Really.

Made me felt so glad about having a new vehicle commander who just nice has his birthday falls on Thursday itself and that he's in our platoon.
But put that with the fact that he was from Scouts too and went on to air pistol in JC it really puts me wondering how can our lives have this much similarities yet are on two different worlds completely......

Well that doesn't matter, the thing is platoon 5 commanders all went to visit his lovely house.
And the entire place doesn't even remind me of Singapore anymore.
The waterway, bungalows, cars parked until there's no more space.
Wonderful place.
And for a moment I really thought that I ought to live there if given a chance.
Then again, I probably won't ever get to live in this kind of place, and I'll be contented enough with a smaller house too.

Had quite a bit of fun at his house, had a rich man styled BBQ with doesn't quite fill our stomachs enough, ordered pizzas, karaoke in the middle of the night.
Damn, rich man indeed.

The fun still had to end though.
And for us it ends when we all gotta get out at 4am since everyone else has to get back to camp except for me and Steven.
Three cabs came by to pick us up and before I knew it, I was at my doorstep already.
Back to home and reality.
Took leave on Friday so I didn't have to go for the Sports Day.
There would be nothing for me to do there anyways, except to so-called support the rest but even so, there's one whole company of men to do that so there isn't really any point for me to do so.

Didn't do much on Friday though.
Stayed at home as usual.
Same for Saturday too.
And compared to what I did on Thursday, Friday and Saturday seemed really wasted much.
Went to meet Chandan, Gorilla, Owl and GY to discuss on PLC Hike though.
A little bit disappointed that I couldn't help out much since it'll be during my Rot3.
Then again, after I ORD I'll have all the time I want but I can foresee myself not helping much anyway.
Sigh.
Shall see how things go, one step at a time.
Really don't know how life after ORD will be like, but no point thinking about it now unless I'm gonna do something about it immediately.

I only know that I should sleep soon, now that it's already 4.20am.
And this would probably be part of my life post-ORD; sleeping late way past midnight.

Shall end this here, and will be back again next week probably.
Or latest three weeks from now, if Rot3 is really gonna be so energy draining that I can't even blog weekly.
Because three weeks from now, is where the end begins.

The final countdown.

But for now, it's the last burst.











Byeall.

Less than that; but at the same time, more too.

Four more weeks of chiong sua, one week motorized platoon training, three weeks Rotation 3.

And that's it.
Is that all?
Suddenly it all become too fast.



But we're still looking forward to it.
If only we really get what we look forward to.
But reality always proves to be otherwise.

When we really think about it, it's not going to be that hard anyway.
At least this week's gonna be rather easy.
Just one day of outfield, few days of here and there training.
All seems to be too little in building up towards ROT3.
Then again when we think back about ROT1, ROT3 couldn't be much harder anyways.
MBOS training, platoon level training + missions.
Then it's company level training + missions, everything same with ROT1, just with terrex included.
And even if they only send us to startline using terrex, it just means that it'll be ROT1 all over again and I believe we can get through this easily.

The main concern is just the handing over.
It's never going to be easy.
Nothing's ever gonna be easy, but it's gonna be worth it.


Well really good luck to the new commanders.




One of my many many principles in dealing with people and doing things is always to 'put myself in their shoes'.
To understand what others are thinking, to see the rationale behind their actions, to know the reasons behind their decisions.
I believe this would help me to in turn make my own decision more correctly.
Then again, there's not such thing as right or wrong, only perceptions of people.

''The world is built upon the perceptions of different people."

And that's what I always believed in, and a book I recently read just states a similar thinking that reality doesn't exist, only perceptions do, or something like that.

And by being able to gain different perception of a single situation, it allows me to think from the point of everyone else thus more easily gaining a common understanding.
There're still people who work without rationales though, or rather just doing things with reasons which I've yet to be good enough to find out or realize.

And while I'm so sure I'll still go on and major in Psychology in university, I'm also sure that I'll be reading a lot of psychology even if I don't do so.
The bad thing that I really dislike is however over-analyzing everything, 'cause I've already been doing it all the time, and that the study of humans just make everything sound so logical and systematic that emotions cease to exist anymore.
Emotions are triggered by circumstances, then a thought, followed through by an action, the chain of reactions can be broken down and explained by psychologists, psychiatrists and the like, explained into specific details, how everything happened due to certain chromosomes and changes in the human brain.
While all these helps us to understand people better potentially, it makes humans sound like a machine with a certain input giving a definite output all the time.
Of course I know that in the end, there's still so many things about human beings that we don't know of yet, and things can never be definite when humans are involved.
It's just that certain things like emotions, anger, love, happiness, and things we feel are so natural and in us, when explained through scientific means, makes us understand ourselves better, yet at the same time too much that we seem like we cannot behave as we are anymore, since we understood that at the same time we can always take control of ourselves.

I don't know ultimately if it will be good or bad, for people to take control of themselves completely, being able to get happy as they want to, and calming the anger in their hearts whenever needed, take away the sorrow when they have to and all.
It makes human beings sound like machine once they know how much control they can have with themselves, and instead of behaving the natural way as they should have, start to do actions which they think would favour their situations the most.

Then again, out of so many people in the world, who would really understand all these and be in control of themselves all the time?
While attaining control can be great, being in control is also one of the worst things that can happen.

Especially being forced into being control of a situation, or having too much control of one self or people in general.

Thankfully, there're so many fields of psychology and so many schools of thought too, that it's in fact quite flexible even if some of the theories do coincide with each other even through different schools of thought.

That being said, it does truly interest me how people think, and while I'm not sure how far I would go in psychology, taking it as a major in university is more or less a certainty for me.
It would really be amazing if I can go far in psychology and even carving out a career in a certain area of psychology.
I don't really see that happening as of now though, since the field of psychology is just too big.

Just to name a few off the head, clinical psychology, counselling psychology, forensic psychology, criminal psychology, child psychology, education psychology, consumer psychology, cognitive psychology, genetic psychology, biological psychology, sports psychology, so on and so forth.

Almost everything can be related to psychology, just as how things are all related to science.
And with every specific profession, occupation, or just group of people, there is an aspect of psychology to deal with them; just look at education psychology, child psychology, criminal psychology, sports psychology, which  deal with students, children, criminals and sportsman respectively.

Glad to say, I'm excited in a few of these, and at least interested in many of these aspects of psychology.
Not to say that I'll be able to go far in any of these though, since the programme offered in Singapore are usually too broad and general, usually with concentration on fundamentals and more commonly studied topics.



Really, four more weeks.
This is just next to impossible to get out from my head.

What I really gotta know though, is what will be happening after that.

And till now, it's still an uncertainty to me.

While I can almost smell freedom, I just feared that it will look so different from what I've ever imagined so far.

For now, it's 3.15am and I'm still not a bit tired.
Okay, maybe a bit, just a bit.
I think I'm quite in love with writing down my thoughts and stuff.
Really need to up the standard of both my English and Chinese language though.

Had wrote much of what I wanted to post, so long for now.









Byeall.

Connections.

Booked out on Wednesday night.

What a nice little pleasant surprise.

Thanks to some unforeseen circumstances, training ground not being able to be used by us on Thursday, we've been given an extra day away from camp.
A nice extended break that all of us need.

But not one that all of us deserved.


Still, I've once again managed to somehow fly through time and reached early Saturday morning without accomplishing much.
Went to SAFRA again yesterday, hopefully my second last time.
Didn't meet up with the rest of Thursday night, didn't expect so many people to turn up.
Wouldn't want to stay so late anyway with the shooting thing on Friday morning.

It's seemingly just two months away from us now.
Just two short months.
To accomplish this much.
Not impossible.
A lot of effort have to be put in once again.


Two more weeks of training.
Three more weeks of Rotation.
And I even started wondering why the hell they call it Rotation anyways....

Not like it affects much though.
Whatever the name is.



Been talking to my mum just now.
And one of the conclusion is that I've realized how much I've read from the Internet.
From savants to scientist trying to attain immortality, to movies and films, to how Facebook can potentially revolutionalize the world (even more), and I spoke so much I can't even remember what topics did I really touched on.
But I just know that it's a lot a lot, like a lot.

Not sure if this amount of weird readings on various topics would help me later on in my life though.
It has indeed helped to keep me from boredom to varying degree of success, and allow me to view myself as someone knowledgeable.

Still, knowledge, is only knowledge when it's useful to you in the field you're in.
Not many people would find usefulness in knowing in details about savants, how ever-changing technology would one day be ready to take on the world, the standards in measurement of interior design, that and many other facts stuff and information people would normally not read about.

I somehow always would want to take them in though.
To give myself this little more knowledge which I might not even have any use of, just so that I know that I know about this certain thing.


And I'm not even sure if that's because I actually like reading or I'm just curious.


Well the thing about savants is really special and thought provoking though, and it might be worth a read for anyone, especially the part on acquired savant or sudden savant.




That apart, and that is just one of the many articles I'll come across week in week out, life's been normal except that we're a completed motorized battalion now, with the vehicle commanders and terrex operators in.
Just not a truly fully motorized battalion, with training still on-going within commanders and have yet started for the men.
Soon though, soon.
And then we'll all hand over nicely to the next batch of guys who will do a great job from then on.


Suddenly don't see the reason for continuing to stay up now.
It's Friday night/Saturday morning, but what else more interesting/meaningful can I do other than just staring at my computer screen in my room hoping to come across something that can interest me....?











Byeall.