Do things right.

Had been going out everyday since Christmas.

Ball on Wed morning with RW Terry Pan.
Ball on Thurs morning with the usual bball peeps at UTown; travelling to Jurong East to meet Shafiq and some others before heading down to Chevrons for 2SIR first year comds chalet/bbq.
Didn't stay over.
Mum's birthday on Friday, went out to Bedok Mall for lunch at Din Tai Fung then walked around a bit.
After which got to ECP to eat Roxy Laksa at Lagoon.
Sat went out with RW to town to walk around a lil, also with the intent to look for Chandan's present.
Today ball again at Eunos CC.

Calves feeling really tired out after three mornings of basketball in five days.

Got CAP 3.5 for my first semester, can't say that I'm satisfied with it but it has already met/exceeded my expectations since I really lowered my expectations thanks to Chinese Studies.
Not a bad results considering how my Sem 1 went, but not good enough either I guess.
It will just be a pull my CAP up game from now on for the next 7 semesters then.
Gotta average like 4.07 per sem to be able to pull it up to a second upper, sounds tough, but possibly achievable if I don't screw things up again.
Makes me wonder if I should go on SEP in the future though, since I'll lost a semester of chance to pull my CAP up.
Probably only if my CAP is good enough then I'll go then.
Or maybe the experience will just make up for whatever not good enough results I'll get eventually.


And the new year is coming too fast.
Was it like that every year?
But this time round it just seems like I'm so not prepared for the new year, and it's already the second last day of 2013 now.
Doesn't help that CNY is coming in less than a month too.
Just feels like there are still things to be done and finished up in 2013 while 2014 is already creeping up on us, not giving us a chance to tie up loose ends and to get ready to welcome the new year.
I guess that's just life.
Time doesn't wait for anyone.
Think I'll just try to stay home and do whatever I need to do in these two days.
And to sort myself out and figure out what I need to do for the upcoming year.
We are all going through change, and there will be quite a number of changes still coming up so we better be ready for them.

PLC Hike this coming weekend.
Just feels so fast that it's already here but then again it's usually settled during December hols anyways.
One month holidays really doesn't seem enough, but one semester later we will really get to take a break and recharge so we better buck up for the upcoming semester now.



Just got to do things right.
















Byeall.

X'mas Eve.

Went to the temple last Thursday with my parents.
Just a typical day out with family I guess.

Don't think I went out or did anything important on Friday.
Slept late again though.

And supposed to play ball on Sat at 1pm but only realized so after Xuan gave me a call and woke me up at 12pm.
Intended to wake up at 12plus 'cause I thought afternoon would mean something like 3, 4pm but I guess I was wrong.
Ball the entire afternoon away and only reached home in the evening.
Watched the Golden Horse Awards with mum, had dinner, blah blah blah.
Channel 8 then showed Lee Hom's 恋爱通告 so watched that too, again, after watching it once on my computer.
Another late night for me.
As usual.

Probably sort of wasted Sunday away.
Again.
Late night once more.

Met Chandan Terry RW for dinner yesterday.
Days seem to past by so fast yet I felt like everything happened quite some time back, probably due to the lack of sleep and distorted sense of time thanks to last night.
Went straight to bed almost immediately after I got home last night so that I can catch some sleep before the Arsenal-Chelsea match.
Woke up at 1plus and couldn't really sleep after that so used computer for a while before heading to Tmart to meet Suting and Kenny to watch the match.

Boring match, weren't able to secure a win, but at least didn't lose either.
Not the best results but somewhat satisfactory, out of no choice anyway; probably gonna be similar to my sem1's results which I haven't checked yet.
But with my already extremely low expectations, I really hope to not get the shock of my life when I see my results.

Oh yea spent one of the nights watching Taiwanese variety shows from the 90s and early 00s.
They were so nice back then although some were borderline insane.
I wonder how those artistes will feel when they see themselves as the way they were a decade ago or longer on those variety shows.
And I wonder how Show Luo will feel looking at the old days, but I'm sure he still remembers everything he's been through and thus would continue working hard to stay where he is and scale higher.

I was actually posting on tumblr before this, and thought that I've got too much to pen down and that's why decided to blog.
But after typing everything above about my past few days, I don't really feel like saying anything else anymore.



Anyways got back this morning after the match, and soon after I switched my phone off until now.

Well, other than to Instagram in the morning once and just now for my #wordoftheday that is.
Resisted the urge to check my results as well.
I don't know when will I feel like checking it, but just not now.
Doesn't really matter anyway right.
And today feels like a really good day, with the weather and all, and I seem to be doing fine as well.
Tidied up my room a bit but still much much more work to be done.
Haven't slept at all since the less than 3 hours nap last night.
Had been tidying up, watching videos on YouTube until lunch or so.
Then watched two episodes of Running Man with mum and sis.
And now at 6.08pm typing this post for the blog.
Not sure my plans for later but it will be really great if I manage to sketch something out.
Inspiration and motivation are clearly the two biggest obstacles though.
At most I'll just be stuck with watching shows all the way until I feel like checking my results.
It's indeed something that's more or less on my mind all the time today, but it's not exactly bothering me either.
Well let's just leave things as they are and not upset the balance now.
Shall just see what I should do next.
















Byeall.

'Cause it's just like this.

Another week has gone by after finals and now we're left with just over three weeks of holidays before Sem 2 starts.

Can't really remember what I did for each of the days for the past week but will just list those that I can recall.

Met up with Steven Hilmi Shafiq SK to watch Don Jon at town, dinner before that and walked around and chill till almost 12 before going back home.
Played ball on Sun morning; got poked in my right eye and seemed to have left a slight scratch on the surface of the eyeball that caused a small dot of blood to appear on it.
FCH yesterday, felt like I wasted the whole day doing nothing but still ended up getting very tired.
Started my Project #wordoftheday last week. Ohh and I have yet to sketch up both yesterday's and today's words, shall do that immediately after finishing up this post.
Watched Arsenal-ManC at tmart kopitiam with suting; terrible, terrible game.
May they do so much better against Chelsea this coming weekend.

And it's probably about time I arrange and organize my movie ticket collection again.
Maybe I should get a nice notebook for it too or simply wrap the exercise book to give it a nice and more fitting cover page.

Really really want and need to get myself organized too.
Saw this bullet journal method and it seems promising; then again the amount of work you have to do for it seems daunting.
And you really have to carry that notebook everywhere you go, make it a point to record every single thing onto it for it to work well.
And in this age where people carry smartphones everywhere, it might just make more sense to get accustomed to a really good note-taking app and use it in the best possible way.
Still the idea of getting a notebook and doing everything manually and handwritten sounds good because as much as I advocate the use of technology to maximize efficiency, there are just certain things I still can't really get used to.


We just have to try then.

New Year's coming soon too, and with that CNY is coming just a while after as well.
That means major cleaning up and time to pack the mess that is in my room.

Gotta clear IPPT too and I really wanna get the Gold and the $400 that comes with it.
Around just slightly more than two weeks for me to clear it; shall see how I can go about doing this.

Downloaded Hannibal too hope it will meet up to my expectations, seems like a really interesting show.
Slowing down my pace of watching Criminal Minds a little so I won't catch up too fast.
Already downloaded Season 8 though.

Finally watched (500) Days of Summer and it's a really really great show.
Didn't really meet my expectations but somehow I still thought that it was really awesome.
Still probably tons of other movies that I can search for and watch.

Sometimes it seems like a good idea to pick up the hobby of reading too, be it English or Chinese, fiction or non-fiction.
Then again I can't really do it.
As much as I believe myself to like reading, I just don't really read books and stuff; although I can when I really want to, but I just don't generally do it.

Ohh and I spent one of the typical cannot-fall-asleep night listening to the Beatles too.
Was sort of the first time I really listen to their music and they do make excellent music; can't say that I'm much of a fan of their music as of now yet but I should totally get myself exposed to more of their songs because they are just too good.
Probably should look up more of classical music too 'cause they are really nice to listen to as well, especially when I was studying for finals.

Not sure if it helped me focus better or not but there some pieces that are really just good.


Okay shall get moving now and as usual I hope I don't waste the rest of my holidays away.



Bintan trip seems so improbably now though.













Byeall.

Stuck in reverse.

So the past week after the end of my Sem 1 was pretty not bad.


Let's just start from where I left off again.

Stayed my last few days in CAPT before checking out on Thursday late afternoon.
Packed my crazy load of stuff, 95% of which are still left unpacked in the bags right beside me in my room now, and got ready by 4plus or so when dad and mum came to pick me up.
Went back to the east and went to visit the newly opened Bedok Mall.
Was pretty impressed by it 'cause I really didn't expect it to be of such scale and the variety of shops is crazy too.
Well, not crazy, but just out of my expectations and that is a very good thing.
The amount of Macs and Bux is seriously so high in Singapore though, it's like in more developed areas you can get to a Macs or Bux every few steps.
Kind of exaggerating there but you get what I mean.

Finally got home in the evening and it simply feel so damn good to know that I will be staying home for good and no more "book-in book-out" for this next one month at least.
Well not that I dread stay in CAPT obviously 'cause of the amount of time it saves for me on travelling (the amount of time translated to money is probably about just as much as what I have to pay for it though, and time is money money is time), but I guess I still just dislike the "book-in book-out" feeling since army.
Still had to get back on Sat though for Fledgling Week meeting...
Sigh sort of like a waste of time but well okay hope things go well from then on.
Still quite a long way to go before we really have to do some stuff but seeing how time flies from O Week till now that Sem 1 is already over, I can already foresee how we would be starting our Year 2 soon enough...
Better make good use of my time till then, even 2013 is ending real soon already.

Can't really remember what I did on Friday.
Probably didn't do much.
And I picked up DotA again, well, DotA 2 to be specific.
Still not used to the graphics but hopefully I don't get so used to it that I still continue playing it so much when Sem 2 starts.
Just some simple way to entertain myself and pass time for the time being.


And then it's Sunday.
The day for our S1 bbq at Jason's condo.
Somehow I turned into so-called part of the organizers but only because I really appreciate Jason's initiative in wanting to hold a bbq for us and if I'm going for it I would like to see it well conducted and not screwed up.
Kinda disappointed with many many things though.
The weather and stuff.
But I guess the turn up rate wasn't too bad in the end, and most importantly the people enjoyed it too.
Hopefully the next time I will be able to get double the amount of people to come, don't even know if we have so many people though.
But anyways I just meant that I hope to get everyone to turn up.
Really like this OG so much so I don't wish to see us eventually scatter apart, just like how 2r6o6 still manage to organize chalet every year even though not everyone is entirely united together or what.
Just hope that there's still something more we can do since only one semester has passed so far.
And come next year too hopefully everyone will be able to come back for Arts O Week at least and crash Arts Camp too if possible.
It will be so awesome 'cause S House is really more than a house and more like a home.
Well shouldn't think too much about it though 'cause orientation camps are just like a part of university life and there's still this big academic part to it.
And after screwing my sem1 up it will be really wise to just mug so damn hard to make up for it in my sem2.

Ohh and managed to catch second half of Arsenal-Everton, 1-1 final score.
So happy that we managed to score late in the game and then Everton had to equalize sigh.
Still 5 points clear though so I guess we just have to build on the momentum and carry on ahead strong.
December is a tough month but we'll make it through.

And my trekking trip with NUS Rovers to Malaysia is cancelled thanks to the flooding situation.
A little bit relieved upon learning about the news through the message they sent because having the trekking trip sort of split my holiday into half and I know I won't really be able to do anything until I can get it over with.
But now I'll have the entire holiday to myself and whatever I want to do, one whole month until school starts again.
Well there's still driving, don't even know if I want to continue learning now or what.
Probably will only take the test some time next year, maybe after Year 1 ends too.
Will see how...
Most importantly now is probably to unpack and organize my stuff that I brought back.
And get myself really organized so I don't mess my life up.
Then plan really well for my mods next sem hopefully to have people to take mods with for each and every of my mod 'cause that will be simply great.
Learnt how I shouldn't take mods on my own 'cause it's just boring and sad.
And also to find lunch buddies early on.
And then still many many stuff to be organized about.
And it will all start with myself 'cause I really gotta start getting myself moving in the right direction.
And I just used a fourth 'and' to start my sentence; sometimes I feel like my English really sucks when I blog because I seem to have really really limited vocab and bad grammar as well.




Simply always moving but no moving on.

And how else can you move on when you're stuck in reverse?











Byeall.

Unresolved matters.

So it's over.
Semester 1 of my uni life is now over.

And what else is there to look forward to other than the start of semester 2?



Didn't have the mood to blog although I would really like to note down what's been happening while I was at home; well, alone in my room now at 1.44am and wanting to sleep but knowing that I won't be able to fall asleep just gave me the right opportunity to blog.



Continuing from the last post...
Chinese Studies was a total wreck I guess.
Somewhat expected, just hope that the results will come out as a pleasant surprise instead of a complete disappointment.
Already rather mentally prepared about my sem1 results though.

Went for 2SIR ORD function that night.
Pretty nice seeing everyone, commanders and men alike, the whole battalion gathered together to celebrate the end of the mono, and of course, the impending ORD of all the NSF.
And still Bravo had the most first year comds attending the function.
There's just something we can't explain about being so attached and bonded despite how frequent people like to complain 'bout being in Bravo, about our OC, about NS and stuff.

Coincidentally Chan and Zai were in Shagri-La for their company buffet event thing too.
So met up for a while, took some photos and stuff.
Really too bad that I didn't get to take more photos with the men and all though.
Well all of them had came a long way to reach here, and I'm sure they became better men and will do well in their lives after army.

So Psych on Tuesday.
Did some last minute studying which sort of didn't really help much either.
MCQ was rather alright, especially if I'm lucky.
SAQ didn't look that good though.
Totally didn't know if what I was writing is what they're looking for or not.
B- isn't a problem, but I'll really hope for an A to pull my CAP up.

And the following three days was supposed to be intense studying for Social Work which up till then I haven't been studying reading revising at all.
Key words: supposed to be.

And that means it didn't went that way.
Time spent on studying; a lot.
Actual studying and studying efficiency; as low as ever.
No motivation either, even when I clearly know that I gotta do well to not screw up my CAP further.
Not even hoping to pull my CAP up with it, just hoping that it doesn't lower it any more.
Even with that I can't bring myself to study hard enough for it.

And comes the paper on Sat, all I can think of is how I'll finally get to ball again after the paper.

The paper was not manageable at all.
Essay questions came out unexpected topics and I just had to make do with the limited amount of knowledge I have.
Really praying hard that I'm super lucky enough to score on the MCQs though, but seriously, just getting 60+ for this paper should be relatively good already.
Or maybe even 50.
Combine that with how I only got a B- for my assignment which contributes 25%, boom.
Not that I wish for others to fall, but hoping that many would do worse or at least as bad as me is the only chance I have at getting a decent grade.


I'll just be glad if I don't see a 2 in front of my CAP for this sem.

Went home Saturday night feeling I don't know what to feel.
Seriously.
Finals is over but I guess if you didn't put in effort for what you're going through, you just won't get the sense of satisfaction when it ends.
Rather the sense of relief is what I probably felt.
Okay that sounded eerily similar to something I've said at one point of time in the past, be it some exams or what, I think.


But that's just how I've been doing things anyway.
Always trying to scrap through, doing the bare minimum, doing what's enough to just carry on with life and never putting in everything I've got.
Ironic I know, for a Scout who's supposed to be the best that one can be.

Anyways, visited NPC Open House on Sunday.
Really great that Dolphin and Grizzly decided to drop by as well, giving us a free ride to Sarimbun.
Stayed with Marcus for the campfire after Chandan went back with them to study for his paper the next day.
It's actually the first time I've been to NPC.
It always feels good to be back at Sarimbun though.
Really feels good.

Campfire was just so-so, but being in Sarimbun, around the fire pit, seeing 53 troops together with everybody else, old or young, that's what mattered most.
And campfire is still campfire; Scouts love campfires.
Announcement of results was delayed though, heavily.
And we somehow gotten Bronze, which is really a bonus.

Got out immediately after everything ended since Dad was already waiting outside for us.
It's just so great to have an awesome Dad like him to be able to come pick me up all the way at Sarimbun even after ending work so late and even to send Marcus and Owl home.

Then Monday is just stay home time for me.
Did nothing much.
Hopefully it's not how I gonna spend my days throughout my vacation.
I'll really appreciate some days like this once in a while though.
Got back her in CAPT to stay for the last few days as well as to pack my stuff up.
Really freakin' dumb that even though we're staying for next sem as well we gotta bring out stuff home and check out by next Mon 12pm.

Next few days probably just gonne be basketball, stay in room watch shows, maybe going out at times if there's any chances, and I really don't know what else other than to sleep like I've not slept for a week.
Well the last thing sounded like a total waste of time though, shall try not to do that at all.
Then on the 18th it's trekking at Berkelah Falls with NUS Rovers.
Still gotta be back here on 10th for their briefing so mafan.
And how are we supposed to prepare for anything if the briefing is conducted just a week before the trek itself?
Shall see how it goes, and hope that I can survive the trek with my current fitness level.
And speaking of fitness, gotta clear my IPPT by December and I still don't think that I can run Gold timing for 2.4km but don't really feel like training too sigh.
I really wanna run for Gold though, not for the money, okay well the money's pretty important too, but also to be able to stay in the Gold IPPT Club.
I already dropped out of it for Year 0 IPPT though but whatever that's not official I didn't have to take it anyway so just work hard now for my Year 1 IPPT.
And there's still driving.
Sounds like I've got freakin' lots of things to do some are fun and some are not and I don't know where to start because I'm just getting the feeling that I've got tons of things to do but what I really want to do is just to lay there and wait for time to pass, hoping that things happen by themselves and every single problem will be solved miraculously.

That's not gonna happen though.

And this is when things pile up and you just wanna shut off from the world but you know it's impossible and you have nowhere to go.

Funny how finals are over but things just got even more complicated and when the future is uncertain you can only take a step at a time and hope that you don't fall somewhere and never be able to get up again.
Finals over is a good thing by itself, but sem1 over just means that 1/6 or 1/8 of my uni life is now gone and never coming back.
Maybe I think or worry too much at times, and yet doesn't do anything about it; but over-thinking is just one of the things I do best.

When I actually start doing things instead of simply thinking so much, things will be better.













Byeall.