One More Week.

And here we are, officially stepping into the last week of our national service, with one foot already out in the civilian world.

Listening to Kiss92 FM now, thanks to Zhi Hui's recommendation.
And it surprisingly played Paradise like half an hour after we were talking about it and how 91.3FM was constantly playing it back then when it was just released, because 91.3FM was the station in my company office and I was forced to listen to the song dozens of times.
And that made me realize why is Kiss92 so good, because it extracts information from its audience in some way and play songs that are relevant to us.
Creepy eh?

Well was intending to watch 'The Help' but started chatting and listening to radio instead.


Anyways, let's just continue from last Wednesday for now.
Booked in on Tuesday night to be Wednesday DS, and found out that I'm the CDS, PC6 gonna be DO, and the CDO PS6 is gonna be BOS.
Well, just great.
Had to bring the platoon for breakfast too because Brandon returned from AWOL and needs two specs to look after him.
Wrong, had to bring two platoons to breakfast because there's no DS for Platoon 6.
Then, had to bring three platoons back from cookhouse because Chwan Rong had to do COS duty.
Already started the morning damn nicely.... good.

Joined the RANGER PT and it indeed lived up to its name.
I felt that it was only level 1 though, and good luck to the people who are staying for next year 'cause I don't know how many levels will there be to this insanity.
Nothing much after that until lunch, and Chwan Rong and Serkiat returned in time to bring their platoon for lunch.
Return from where? Medical Centre for Medical FFI for Brandon who's gonna get sent to DB on that day.
And who's going with him? Chwan Rong and Ser Kiat the 2 DS who coincidentally have guard duty too.
First time seeing CDS having to do so much work.
And so I went to bring the men to exchange their old boots all by myself, bring the three platoons to dinner, and conducted parade before nights out too.
All by myself when you have some others in camp too.
Some others who don't know how to do shit.
Sigh.
And the HQ DS couldn't make it back in time so I literally conducted last parade myself, counting the strength of the entire company.
I guess that's why I'm the best commander.
For the last quarter only though.
And that finally ended my day as the CDS, with all the second year commanders back as well.

Nothing much for Thursday, just had ibos shit for the whole day.
Took charge of the hand grenade station with Tim, well it was normal.
Nothing much worth mentioning.
And Friday, even less, in the morning.
Had lunch with CO and RSM in the afternoon, and found out that Shafiq is gonna be the best commander of the year.
Damn good man.
Had parade in the afternoon, finally handed over to the second year officially.... and that too marks this end of our time in 2SIR, as we received our ORD plaque with our testimonials and stuff too.

Soon after, the men all booked out and we headed to the mess for our dinner and so-called ORD function.
A mini one, that is, but good enough, especially with Jotham as the emcee, for one good last time.
And I believe we all fulfilled our ORD wish when CSM finally danced to Gangnam Style.
Seriously exactly like Psy hahaha.
Received the golden cap badge which I never had a chance to wear too. ):
And I'm really quite saddened by that fact that I told myself I just gonna go back camp and wear long four so I get to wear my jockey cap with a golden badge.
Had much fun during that night too, but everything has to come to an end.
And as the dinner ended, our time in 2SIR had finally ended too.
With just a week remaining, and most of us probably not even returning except to complete the survey and to collect our IC, we would soon begin our next phase of life.
Will really miss this place though.
The people, the memories, everything, all the small things we used to do, waking up, slacking, going canteen in the morning, outfield, high kneeling and finally seeing each other from different platoons during movement and at the objective, everytime sharing our stories during re-org especially when we're all at the CCP, and many many tons of other things and memories we share together.
Everything that happened and everyone I met there made my NS experience even more special.
And even though I had tons of memories in my first year too as a recruit and a cadet, these memories are different as I had them as a sergeant, a commander, and I got to experience what life is like as a section commander in a unit too.


Still it's finally time to move on and even though things will get better, I believe it will, as usual, be hard for me to adapt to the changes in my life again.
Gonna book in on Tues afternoon in order to catch the OC's COC parade in late afternoon and possibly speak to OC for the last time.
Well nowadays with Facebook it's hard to say that we will be speaking to anyone for one last time though, and even when your good friends go all the way to Africa Antartica South America you can get to communicate with them too, as long as Internet is made available.

Then probably gonna stay all the way from Tues to Fri, doing whatever I can do for one more last time in camp.
'Cause from then on I'll be a full-fledged civilian once more, leading a life of freedom. (:
Okay not so exaggerated but well, you get what I'm trying to say.
There's still tons of other things for me to go and do though.
So I should probably come up with some sort of plan to ensure that I don't slack off, and to find a job to keep me occupied too when I have nothing to do.

Going Mt Faber in the afternoon to try and clear my 180++ e-mart credits.
Hopefully there will be more useful stuff over there for me to spend my credits on other than just shoes and everything only applicable in army.

And the next post, shall be written when I finally get to meet my pink IC once more.










Byeall.

Sentimentality.

Let's just start by continuing from where I left off.


Pretty nothing much happened for Wednesday and Thursday except the usual stay home use comp eat sleep shit routine.
Nothing much that I can remember as of now.

Then it was Dental FFI on Friday, just a quick trip to Nee Soon Camp and hours later I'm finally back home again to continue with my boring routine.

Ohyea, went to have lunch with family outside on Thursday, then to Sitex.
Met Jun Cen and Joel there, bought my new computer as well.
Still haven't fully made the switch though, since this old computer is suddenly performing well and consistently, and the fact that I'm still too used to what I have here with all the files and programs too.
Well but it's only a matter of time before I fully accustom myself to Windows 8 and my new comp, probably soon after I ORD.

Went to ball again on Sat morning, at Eunos CC.
Ate lunch at Mac's afterwards, and I actually thought that I brought the house keys out when my parents called to inform that they're heading out to buy stuff.
So I spent the next two hours or so roaming around, accompanying Denie to Bedok Library first since he gave us a lift to Bedok anyway, then to Tampines One where I stopped by Times bookshop as usual.
It's really too small now though, after Muji came and tookover half the space it used to occupy.

Finally got home at 4plus when Dad came to fetch, only to go out again around 7pm.
Been too long since I last met Su Ting, but had to do so really since he's enlisting already too.
Had a fast dinner then dropped by Yes Supermarket to get some drinks before sitting down somewhere to continue our long long chat.
So much things to talk about since it's been ages since we met up, and a certain someone was supposed to meet us too.
But Pan only arrived at 10 or 11? -_-
Normal lah but it's just that it's been way too long since I met Pan too.
After that the conversation sort of shifted to me and Pan, with the main topic being NS since he's enlisted for a month already, then branching out to everything you can think of under the sun.
It was 12plus and he had to pee, no toilets available in 201 anymore so he went home while me and Su Ting traveled to Tmart in hope of catching the Arsenal match.
Disappointing match zzzZ.

Reached home around 4am and slept for freakin' long, think I only woke up at 2plus.
But then I realized that's what I normally do on a Sunday anyway.
That is not what I wish would happen everyday after I ORD though.
Went to meet Su Ting at night again, to shop for some stuff around Tmall for army.
Turned out we didn't even buy anything because we can't find them at all.
So we had dinner at Din Tai Feng, my first time there.
Not too bad, but our stomachs can definitely be filled through cheaper way.

Got home soon after at 10.30pm and then just did some random stuff, watched a movie before sleeping.

Been watching Emma Stone's movies lately, just can't stop after I started with Easy A last Wednesday.
Since then I finished Zombieland the next night,  Superbad last night, Paper Man this afternoon, and probably gonna watch Crazy Stupid Love after this.
She's just so awesome.

And there were so many shows I wanted to watch, either lazy to download, or didn't even touch after downloading them, yet I finished four of Stone's movies in less than a week.

Well at least from now on, especially after I ORD, I know that there's still tons of shows waiting for me to watch and I can watch them if I really want to, instead of wasting time doing nothing.
Criminal Minds, The Mentalist can already probably keep me occupied for quite a while.
And then there are still so many other TV series out there.
Then again, I'm not very pro-US TV series, so I might not even complete them at all.
It's just that Taiwanese dramas seem to take a huge turn downwards that I can't find good ones to watch at all, after I finished In Time With You.
Not that I've been watching a lot of Taiwanese dramas, but I don't watch American shows at all in the past.
FlashForward's probably the only one, and it ended after one season.
When people were out there catching Lost, Prison Break, CSI etc I was just watching plain Mediacorp dramas and other chinese shows.
And I actually miss old Mediacorp dramas when they used to be better.
Still, we must always try new stuff and inject new elements into our life, which sounds like a good damn thing to do after I ORD since there will be plenty of time.
That's also why I got a new comp, gonna get a new phone, gonna re-design my room, and everything else.

Just packed up one part of my room and threw lotsa things away last week.
Not that typical of me.
But after being so sentimental and keep a shit load of stuff since my childhood, I've began to look at them again recently and realized those are things that I've not touched for years, and those are things which doesn't serve me any purpose anymore.
It's just like I kept them only for the sentimental values I felt at that time, because I felt it still wasn't the right time to throw them, only to wait till the right time which is when I've fully adapted to new things in life and am ready to drop them out of my life.
Even old pens, correction tapes, pencil cases... okay saying all these made me feel nostalgic again, because even thinking of all these things reminds me of the times I had them.
But when there's no purpose in them anymore except to take up a space of my room and in my life, there isn't really any point in keeping them.
It might sound like a little thing but I'm sure some people out there do have the same thinking too.
And when it's time to move on, it's time to move on.
Packing up my stuff made me realized too that perhaps I was just keep the things because I didn't feel ready to carry on with my life, and I can't adapt well to new situations, so I need things from the past to make me feel at ease and comfortable enough to carry on with my life.
But now I realized that changes are unavoidable and changes are needed to keep myself in progress.
I guess when your life is suddenly snatched away from you, you spend five days a week under regimentation and your everyday timetable is planned and fixed, not at your consent and choice, you sort of learn how to grow and get used to new things, because that's life.
Many people still hate army and don't see the point of it even when they're going to ORD.
I don't know if it's that they are too dumb to learn anything at all and gain any experiences, or that they're just too blinded by how our two years could've been spent better.
Like I've said before, if given a choice I'd say no to army too, but I don't hate it, I just don't mind serving my nation.
And I never regretted being a specialist, being posted to unit, and doing many things which I'v done until now.
I met friends, I learn things, I grew up, sort of, I just think that if I were to spend these two years all according to my own will, I might not even have been able to do more than if I serve NS instead.

Well, sort of going off topic, but you get the point.
Now I'm at the stage where change is coming again, with ORD looming just a week and a half away.
And this time it'll probably be a more welcomed change than it was a year and ten months ago.
I just have to make sure that while I change myself for the better too, to not forget to maintain what is good, and make sure that they remain here forever even when changes are bound to happen every now and then in the future.











Byeall.

The time, the days.

So we finished our combat shoot and everyone got back happily, $200 richer.

And the day before was company cohesion, not the best we could have, but it was good enough.
Some paintball action and archery over at the NCC side, followed by water games which turned into water wars at coyline, then transit to ECP for BBQ session.
Not too bad at all.
After that, overnight lan till 4.30am  before cabbing back to camp and preparing for combat shoot InAD.
Shagged maxxed.


The only thing which is utterly disappointing, my ''successor'' had to become PS6 instead.
And I got another guy from another platoon who don't even know any of our men to take over me.
No one to blame for this, but this goes down as one of my regrets in my army life, not a shit can be done about it.
Too complicated to explain here, but basically shit happened and things changed, unforeseen circumstances once again occurred and we were once again shown how powerless we are.

I sincerely hope for the best for everyone, all the second year commanders though, and thank those who tried to learn and are going to do their best for the men and for themselves.


Had a normal weekend with nothing much on.
The only few highlights was probably watching Arsenal thrash Tottenham, since it's been a while since I witnessed them playing this kind of game.
And probably finally balling again on Sunday.
Well, collected my passport too on Saturday morning, and found out that HTC One X+ is finally out in Singapore so went to take a quick look at nex.
The only thing stopping me from buying it now however, is HTC's very own possible new phone, the J Butterfly/Droid DNA in Japan/USA, and possibly known as HTC Deluxe globally.
With specs as good as that, it's hard to resist waiting for it, yet I can't be sure that it will come to Singapore soon, especially when the storage and battery life may not be on par with the One X+.
Well I've still got some time and I'm not in the rush to get a new phone yet, so I'll probably wait a little longer for any updates and news on HTC Deluxe.
But in three weeks' time if nothing's coming out, it'll be hard to say that I won't be spotted with a brand new One X+ with me.

Booked in yesterday afternoon for guard duty.
And so many people look at me and Shafiq as if we've not been in camp for a damn damn long time, when it's only that morning itself.
Well, how things changed.
And very soon all of them have to get used to not seeing us anymore.
That's life isn't it.
And that's exactly how SAF is like anyways.

Had an uneventful guard duty, but it's good that nothing much happened during our duty.
Stayed back in camp to sleep a bit more after that, and spent some time talking to Calvin before we left for breakfast.
Went to LJS at Junction 8 and finally reached home around 12.30pm.
Surf the web for quite a bit before sleeping again for around 4 hours till 8plus.
Watched some TV and came back here till now.

11.00pm, Tuesday.
A time where I'll normally be seen in camp instead.
But what's happening now will exactly be what's gonna happen to me very soon, every week.
With ORD happening in less than three weeks' time, I still feel kinda lost on how my life will be like after NS.
I better set my directions right and follow them before I somehow manage to waste the whole of my next 8months of my life.

For now, to-do list includes model for gateway, finishing reading Psych 101, possibly more sketching, and.... not too sure what else but I must be sure to pen down whatever thoughts and goals and things to do I have in mind before I lose sight of them soon.

Another thing to try is to sleep early and wake up early.
Can be tough though, especially when I've already slept so much today and am not tired at all now.

But post-ORD, and I'll have all the time I need to try out new things and learn new skills.
I just have to be sure that I really do it.











Byeall.

Argo: "The movie was fake. The mission was real."

Argo was fascinating.


Okay let's start from Monday.

Went for our combat shoot at Section Live Firing Area near PLC and NTU there.
True enough, it's fairly easy to get a score high enough for us to get marksman for certain after shooting InAD on Friday.
What's amazing is that people like Hilmi hitting 20 both for day and night, and even for the night reshoot shot a respectable 19.
Well I guess as long as all of us gonna get our marksman, anything's fine.
I didn't shot too well, but not bad still, good enough to guarantee ourselves marksman and that's it.

So stayed over in camp after returning from range as it was 12plus 1 already.
Left early at around 7, went breakfast with Dad after he picked me up and dropped Ser Kiat off at his house.
Came back home, slacked a little before sleeping some more.
Woke up in the afternoon and used computer for a while before leaving house.

Reached Marina Square at 6.30pm, too early.
Somehow Tim/Steven/whoever initiated a platoon 5's commanders' outing/dinner.
Well, only both of them, myself and Hilmi turned up though.
More like a platoon 5 Dec ORD personnel dinner.
It was nice though, to be able to meet up outside, have a meal and all, since most of the time we meet, we're in camp and the only other times we go out together are during nights out and that's all.
Daryl couldn't make it though.

So at 6.30pm I decided to visit Times bookstore, attempting to search for 'Understand Applied Psychology'.
However there wasn't any in the store, yet I found 'Psych 101' which interested me much too.
Bought it right away.

Met Tim after that and waited a while for Steven to arrive.
Hilmi only reached an hour after the agreed time.
Sleep sleep sleep zzzzZ.
So the three of us bought tickets first, and decided to eat Turkish Cuisine after Steven mentioned it as an option.
It was a good meal, the food and the company.
The price was nice too.
Four people eating a dinner priced at $190.
Wow.
Money well spent I guess.
Another form of "Happy Money" I guess, as I mentioned the night before.

Watched "Argo", think it just came out on the day itself.
Fantastic movie.
Perhaps my opinion is swayed by the overwhelming amount of positive reviews and critics about the movie, but the movie itself was indeed at least a great one.
Especially when it's based on a true story, it's probably hard to make a better movie out of this story.
The pace of the movie was just nice, fast enough to keep me entertained, yet not too fast that I can't catch up with the story.
The plot is interesting too with little bits of comedic factors here and there.
And the most amazing part is how realistic this had to be, being based on a true story.
All in all, a movie worth watching.

So we went home straight after the show.
Took MRT and happened to still catch 293 home, lucky.
Scout meeting later on, but I'll probably give it a miss looking at how late I got home and the fact that I'm still up now.
Can't visit them on Friday too.
Hopefully I'll be able to do so on next Wednesday.

Shall stop right here right now and get to bed soon.
Sleeping late all the time these few days is probably the reason why my cough/flu wasn't able to recover at all.









Byeall.

Start planting an apple tree.

Just less than a week ago, everything was finally over.
And it felt like an eternity.


Then again, it's not exactly over yet.

Combat shoot tomorrow and on Friday, coy cohesion on Thursday.
Will still be in camp for at least three days this week.

And everyone seems to be so immersed in the ORD mood that everything else is of little to no importance to them anymore.
Can't blame them.
Once again, people have different mindsets, thinkings, and perceptions of different situations and things and each of us can't possibly force our own thoughts into other people's mind simply because we dislike their mindset and think that ours is 'more correct'.
It's tough to see shit happening everyday to people and can't do a thing about it though.
A simply change of perception can already open up yourself to a brand new world, yet some choose to confine themselves within their own small little space isolated by bricks built up by themselves, leaving just a small hole to look at the outside world, thus limiting the things they see and affecting their perception of this world.

The world is built upon perception.
And if this is happening, the world becomes ever more limited, and how can we progress if each of us care only for ourselves and for nothing else?

Still too advanced for me I guess.
For now let's just still carry on to do my best, do what I can, and hopefully finish up my NS journey beautifully.



Then what's afterwards?
8 more months to university.
Seems like 8 months to Scouting to be involved in.
Am I up to it? I'll never know till I try.
And even with this there's still so many other things to get involved in and to do.
Driving license, traveling(?), sketching, learning new skills, reading, etc.

Art is not necessary in life, but art is what enriches your life.
If merely surviving is enough for you, then maybe you haven't try living before, because once you start living your life then will you realize how much more there is to life than just struggling to survive.
Not just art, many other things around us which can possibly enrich our experiences in our journey towards discovering ourselves better and developing ourselves into a more complete soul.



Wonder why do I sound so chim today.
Then again, penning down thoughts here and there every now and there is extremely useful as a record of one's growth.
Perhaps ten years later looking back at this place, I'd realized how foolish or childish I had been, with ten years of experience hopefully helping me to gain a more complete view of the world and people in general.
Perhaps I'd be able to prove what I'm thinking now.



But then again, we'll never know till we try, right?






PLC Hike/Camp [Vision Quest 2012] is over as well.
Seemed like it's quite successful and that's good enough.
What had always not been happening however is the sustainability.
Without it, whatever we had built up will crumble one day.
And with ourselves having more free time after NS, perhaps it's time to resolve this problem.

Having foresight is never easy, but having foresight is what makes you able to deal with everything in the long run.

Then again, we'll never know what's gonna happen all the time.
But as with the quote, "Even if I knew that tomorrow the world would go to pieces, I would still plant my apple tree." -- Martin Luther

No matter what happens the next day, the next hour, the next minute, or even the next second, the most important thing at the moment is to try, to do something about it, to get started.
Because you do not know what might happen, so if you do not do so, you'll never know what could've happened.


So try because you don't know what might happen, if not you'll never know what could've happened.








Byeall.

Last burst.

Three more weeks.



The past week had been another normal week.
Already don't know this is the how many times I've said that already.
But I guess 'normal' will have a new definition soon.
Soon enough, hopefully.

Spent my energy carefully in the first three days of the week, went through platoon battle course with ease, then had two days of rest.
Nothing much to talk about for the training portion, yet Thursday had been a meaningful day.
Hahaha, talk about meaningful.

Took half day leave on Thursday to leave in the afternoon and went to Hilmi's house to play xbox.
This is just a midpoint to our destination though.
And when the time's come for us to go, we left his house towards Harbourfront.
Vivocity to be exact.
And to be more exact, towards Sentosa Cove.
First time visiting Sentosa Cove.
And it totally blew me away.
Really.

Made me felt so glad about having a new vehicle commander who just nice has his birthday falls on Thursday itself and that he's in our platoon.
But put that with the fact that he was from Scouts too and went on to air pistol in JC it really puts me wondering how can our lives have this much similarities yet are on two different worlds completely......

Well that doesn't matter, the thing is platoon 5 commanders all went to visit his lovely house.
And the entire place doesn't even remind me of Singapore anymore.
The waterway, bungalows, cars parked until there's no more space.
Wonderful place.
And for a moment I really thought that I ought to live there if given a chance.
Then again, I probably won't ever get to live in this kind of place, and I'll be contented enough with a smaller house too.

Had quite a bit of fun at his house, had a rich man styled BBQ with doesn't quite fill our stomachs enough, ordered pizzas, karaoke in the middle of the night.
Damn, rich man indeed.

The fun still had to end though.
And for us it ends when we all gotta get out at 4am since everyone else has to get back to camp except for me and Steven.
Three cabs came by to pick us up and before I knew it, I was at my doorstep already.
Back to home and reality.
Took leave on Friday so I didn't have to go for the Sports Day.
There would be nothing for me to do there anyways, except to so-called support the rest but even so, there's one whole company of men to do that so there isn't really any point for me to do so.

Didn't do much on Friday though.
Stayed at home as usual.
Same for Saturday too.
And compared to what I did on Thursday, Friday and Saturday seemed really wasted much.
Went to meet Chandan, Gorilla, Owl and GY to discuss on PLC Hike though.
A little bit disappointed that I couldn't help out much since it'll be during my Rot3.
Then again, after I ORD I'll have all the time I want but I can foresee myself not helping much anyway.
Sigh.
Shall see how things go, one step at a time.
Really don't know how life after ORD will be like, but no point thinking about it now unless I'm gonna do something about it immediately.

I only know that I should sleep soon, now that it's already 4.20am.
And this would probably be part of my life post-ORD; sleeping late way past midnight.

Shall end this here, and will be back again next week probably.
Or latest three weeks from now, if Rot3 is really gonna be so energy draining that I can't even blog weekly.
Because three weeks from now, is where the end begins.

The final countdown.

But for now, it's the last burst.











Byeall.

Less than that; but at the same time, more too.

Four more weeks of chiong sua, one week motorized platoon training, three weeks Rotation 3.

And that's it.
Is that all?
Suddenly it all become too fast.



But we're still looking forward to it.
If only we really get what we look forward to.
But reality always proves to be otherwise.

When we really think about it, it's not going to be that hard anyway.
At least this week's gonna be rather easy.
Just one day of outfield, few days of here and there training.
All seems to be too little in building up towards ROT3.
Then again when we think back about ROT1, ROT3 couldn't be much harder anyways.
MBOS training, platoon level training + missions.
Then it's company level training + missions, everything same with ROT1, just with terrex included.
And even if they only send us to startline using terrex, it just means that it'll be ROT1 all over again and I believe we can get through this easily.

The main concern is just the handing over.
It's never going to be easy.
Nothing's ever gonna be easy, but it's gonna be worth it.


Well really good luck to the new commanders.




One of my many many principles in dealing with people and doing things is always to 'put myself in their shoes'.
To understand what others are thinking, to see the rationale behind their actions, to know the reasons behind their decisions.
I believe this would help me to in turn make my own decision more correctly.
Then again, there's not such thing as right or wrong, only perceptions of people.

''The world is built upon the perceptions of different people."

And that's what I always believed in, and a book I recently read just states a similar thinking that reality doesn't exist, only perceptions do, or something like that.

And by being able to gain different perception of a single situation, it allows me to think from the point of everyone else thus more easily gaining a common understanding.
There're still people who work without rationales though, or rather just doing things with reasons which I've yet to be good enough to find out or realize.

And while I'm so sure I'll still go on and major in Psychology in university, I'm also sure that I'll be reading a lot of psychology even if I don't do so.
The bad thing that I really dislike is however over-analyzing everything, 'cause I've already been doing it all the time, and that the study of humans just make everything sound so logical and systematic that emotions cease to exist anymore.
Emotions are triggered by circumstances, then a thought, followed through by an action, the chain of reactions can be broken down and explained by psychologists, psychiatrists and the like, explained into specific details, how everything happened due to certain chromosomes and changes in the human brain.
While all these helps us to understand people better potentially, it makes humans sound like a machine with a certain input giving a definite output all the time.
Of course I know that in the end, there's still so many things about human beings that we don't know of yet, and things can never be definite when humans are involved.
It's just that certain things like emotions, anger, love, happiness, and things we feel are so natural and in us, when explained through scientific means, makes us understand ourselves better, yet at the same time too much that we seem like we cannot behave as we are anymore, since we understood that at the same time we can always take control of ourselves.

I don't know ultimately if it will be good or bad, for people to take control of themselves completely, being able to get happy as they want to, and calming the anger in their hearts whenever needed, take away the sorrow when they have to and all.
It makes human beings sound like machine once they know how much control they can have with themselves, and instead of behaving the natural way as they should have, start to do actions which they think would favour their situations the most.

Then again, out of so many people in the world, who would really understand all these and be in control of themselves all the time?
While attaining control can be great, being in control is also one of the worst things that can happen.

Especially being forced into being control of a situation, or having too much control of one self or people in general.

Thankfully, there're so many fields of psychology and so many schools of thought too, that it's in fact quite flexible even if some of the theories do coincide with each other even through different schools of thought.

That being said, it does truly interest me how people think, and while I'm not sure how far I would go in psychology, taking it as a major in university is more or less a certainty for me.
It would really be amazing if I can go far in psychology and even carving out a career in a certain area of psychology.
I don't really see that happening as of now though, since the field of psychology is just too big.

Just to name a few off the head, clinical psychology, counselling psychology, forensic psychology, criminal psychology, child psychology, education psychology, consumer psychology, cognitive psychology, genetic psychology, biological psychology, sports psychology, so on and so forth.

Almost everything can be related to psychology, just as how things are all related to science.
And with every specific profession, occupation, or just group of people, there is an aspect of psychology to deal with them; just look at education psychology, child psychology, criminal psychology, sports psychology, which  deal with students, children, criminals and sportsman respectively.

Glad to say, I'm excited in a few of these, and at least interested in many of these aspects of psychology.
Not to say that I'll be able to go far in any of these though, since the programme offered in Singapore are usually too broad and general, usually with concentration on fundamentals and more commonly studied topics.



Really, four more weeks.
This is just next to impossible to get out from my head.

What I really gotta know though, is what will be happening after that.

And till now, it's still an uncertainty to me.

While I can almost smell freedom, I just feared that it will look so different from what I've ever imagined so far.

For now, it's 3.15am and I'm still not a bit tired.
Okay, maybe a bit, just a bit.
I think I'm quite in love with writing down my thoughts and stuff.
Really need to up the standard of both my English and Chinese language though.

Had wrote much of what I wanted to post, so long for now.









Byeall.

Connections.

Booked out on Wednesday night.

What a nice little pleasant surprise.

Thanks to some unforeseen circumstances, training ground not being able to be used by us on Thursday, we've been given an extra day away from camp.
A nice extended break that all of us need.

But not one that all of us deserved.


Still, I've once again managed to somehow fly through time and reached early Saturday morning without accomplishing much.
Went to SAFRA again yesterday, hopefully my second last time.
Didn't meet up with the rest of Thursday night, didn't expect so many people to turn up.
Wouldn't want to stay so late anyway with the shooting thing on Friday morning.

It's seemingly just two months away from us now.
Just two short months.
To accomplish this much.
Not impossible.
A lot of effort have to be put in once again.


Two more weeks of training.
Three more weeks of Rotation.
And I even started wondering why the hell they call it Rotation anyways....

Not like it affects much though.
Whatever the name is.



Been talking to my mum just now.
And one of the conclusion is that I've realized how much I've read from the Internet.
From savants to scientist trying to attain immortality, to movies and films, to how Facebook can potentially revolutionalize the world (even more), and I spoke so much I can't even remember what topics did I really touched on.
But I just know that it's a lot a lot, like a lot.

Not sure if this amount of weird readings on various topics would help me later on in my life though.
It has indeed helped to keep me from boredom to varying degree of success, and allow me to view myself as someone knowledgeable.

Still, knowledge, is only knowledge when it's useful to you in the field you're in.
Not many people would find usefulness in knowing in details about savants, how ever-changing technology would one day be ready to take on the world, the standards in measurement of interior design, that and many other facts stuff and information people would normally not read about.

I somehow always would want to take them in though.
To give myself this little more knowledge which I might not even have any use of, just so that I know that I know about this certain thing.


And I'm not even sure if that's because I actually like reading or I'm just curious.


Well the thing about savants is really special and thought provoking though, and it might be worth a read for anyone, especially the part on acquired savant or sudden savant.




That apart, and that is just one of the many articles I'll come across week in week out, life's been normal except that we're a completed motorized battalion now, with the vehicle commanders and terrex operators in.
Just not a truly fully motorized battalion, with training still on-going within commanders and have yet started for the men.
Soon though, soon.
And then we'll all hand over nicely to the next batch of guys who will do a great job from then on.


Suddenly don't see the reason for continuing to stay up now.
It's Friday night/Saturday morning, but what else more interesting/meaningful can I do other than just staring at my computer screen in my room hoping to come across something that can interest me....?











Byeall.