第一最好不相见，如此便可不相恋。
第二最好不相知，如此便可不相思。
第三最好不相伴，如此便可不相欠。
第四最好不相惜，如此便可不相忆。
第五最好不相爱，如此便可不相弃。
第六最好不相对，如此便可不相会。
第七最好不相误，如此便可不相负。
第八最好不相许，如此便可不相续。
第九最好不相依，如此便可不相偎。
第十最好不相遇，如此便可不相聚。
但曾相见便相知，相见何如不见时。
安得与君相诀绝，免教生死作相思。
Heard on TV today, 9pm show.
Beautiful and interesting poem.....
Finally back from Ubin again, for the second time in just almost month's time.
This time it's Solo Night for the guys who just graduated, and Survival Camp for the Sec 4s.
Having a camp in January really isn't easy man...
The good thing is that the weather was surprisingly good.
One of the really rare few times in which we experienced a weather this nice when visiting Ubin.
Didn't do much for the camp at all.
And after I left my bag in the tent since the start, I didn't even have to go to it to get anything.
Could've just went empty-handed like that.
But well, even when your preparation doesn't affect the outcome, it doesn't mean that the preparations you did were in vain.
You will never know, after all.
So shagged when I came back that I slept from 3 to 8pm just now.
And it's not really physically or mentally shagged since I didn't do much, just pure sleep-deprived shag.
Compared to other camps in which we're required to do physically-demanding stuff, training and exercises, or those that we have to rack our brains to prevent things from going wrong, this was really a camp in which I just went and didn't contribute much physically or mentally, except for almost not sleeping at all for both nights.
Hope that it was a good experience for both the participants and the conducting though.
Really much lessons to draw from it.
And yes running a camp is definitely fun.
And so is the planning phase.
Preparation is the only thing that's tougher but planning for camps is certainly an enjoyable process.
Guess it all comes from the inner desires of man about creation.
Another weekend to Scouting again.
Next Saturday.
And I wonder really how will my life be like weeks or months from now.
Byeall.
Going Pulau Ubin again tomorrow.
For the don't know how many times.
And this past week feels like one which I have not accomplish anything at all.
None at all.
Went back to visit for the Scouts' meeting yesterday.
Other than that, pretty much nothing else.
And the men from 2SIR have already gotten their CSB.
Well, at least for those who completed it.
Time's past and it's only two weeks to CNY.
Just what am I going to do from then on?
Byeall.
Three weeks to Chinese New Year.So so damn fast.
Didn't exactly do much, again.
Getting so bored saying this same thing all the time, then proclaiming that I gonna do this and that blah blah blah but it's still the same old shit everyday.
Room's still in a mess.
Three weeks for me to fix that.
Won't be exactly that free though.
And I'm still not working, or learning driving, or doing anything for that matter.
Went back to Scouts' AGM last Saturday.
As a leader.
And from now on I guess I'll have to spend much time fulfilling my role as a leader.
Should be fine since I'm so free anyway, although I should really really get a job soon.
One with extremely flexible working hours would be great.
Watched Gangster Squad yesterday.
Nice show.
Finally got my limited edition Reebok Answer IV, with so much efforts and manpower put into it.
And life's still pretty much the same.
I wonder how long will I still get to live like that before the level of boredom increase tremendously, with me going through same routines but tons of work to complete everyday.
I should try doing something different before I lose the chance to do them anymore.
Byeall.
Finally started doing something about my bookshelf today.
And my room is now in a big mess because I'm just halfway through and stopped... :/
Lesson learnt? Never start doing something that you are not going to finish; and once you start doing something, finish it up well.
And that's about it.
What I've done today.
Another day of aimless me going nowhere sigh.
At least I did something about my bookshelf, one step closer to getting my room to look like my room.
Gotta cut my hair this week, maybe tomorrow, but most likely not.
Still gonna finish tidying my bookshelf tomorrow and probably start on some other parts of my room.
Keep on discovering all the old stuff from secondary school, primary school, or even kindergarten in my room. :O
Brings back so much memories but I don't know what to do with them anymore.
Things which no longer serve any purpose in my life, but things which I'd like to keep with me because I know years later when I look at them they will bring me back to a time in the forgotten past.
But they're also things which occupy so much space in my house and doesn't do anything at all.
Perhaps also things which occupy too much space in my heart which constantly made me live in the past instead of moving on with life.
Sigh.
Who would wanna move on with life.
The attempt to overhaul my room is already a big enough attempt to move on with life.
But still there's a certain part of me wanting to keep all these old stuff.
And I'm just turning 21 this year, who can imagine how my life and my place will be like in thirty years' time?!
Probably would have to dedicate one entire room to properly place all the memories from the past by then.
Shall try to do something about this tomorrow!
Whether I keep what stuff, my bookshelf will at least be neater and more presentable, and so should the other parts of my room too!
I wonder who still blogs.
About their life, and stuff, feelings etc.
Especially when there's social media like Facebook, Twitter where people can easily record what's happening in their lives.
Blogging was the trend years back then, and it's an interesting way to learn about people's lives and feelings too.
I guess at least around me, it's already something which only lived in the past.
And which is also something I can't bear to throw away.
Byeall.
Sixth chalet in eight years.
Well. Trying beating that.
Quite an achievement I'll say, for a bunch of people who spent just two years together in secondary school.
But without everyone it won't be a success, and obviously RS did a great job again organizing the chalet.
We didn't exactly do much, but it was all good.
Checked in around 4pm on Friday with RS and Su Ting, and we got nothing to do at all.
Not having BBQ on the first day is weird, especially when we got nothing planned at all too with everyone still so busy from going out and everything and it's just the three of us.
So bored that we watched PotC, trying to kill time before we headed for dinner.
And then we bought some BBQ equipment before Su Ting left.
Kin Seng came after that and soon more people started coming, Teck Li, Han Xiang, Winnie, Bee Cheng etc.
Still due to nothing being planned at all, we had nothing much to do.
Started playing "The Social Network", brought by HX and halfway through there pretty much wasn't anyone paying attention to the show anymore.
Even Cherng Jye came for quite a while then.
And soon after we decided to head to Macs for a meal since few of us are really really hungry, stayed there for quite a while chit-chatting and stuff before heading back to the chalet.
Then we watched "Se7en" which HX brought too.
Good show.
And most people fell asleep by then.
Teck Li was already sleeping long before that so by the time the show ended and some of us wanted to go for breakfast, he woke up and joined us.
So I ended up sleeping only at around 9am after some time back at the chalet from breakfast.
Woke up at about 11am with almost everyone still sleeping.
Went to the pool to sun tan a little and accompany TL when he goes swimming.
And he got shagged so fast while the sun got really hot.
The girls came by only half an hour after we were there, and we were about to leave just when they arrived.
So we went back first, showered and lepak in the room while waiting for the girls to come back too, while RS and Bee Cheng went lunch already.
So we went for lunch after everyone came back, and decided to catch "Les Miserables" at 3.40pm.
Headed back home at around 2.30pm to get the fried rice and reached back just in time for the show.
It was raining then but fortunately the rain stopped by evening.
The show was really great although I really felt like sleeping at the start 'cause I only slept less than 2hours till then.
Went back to the chalet and to the BBQ pit with everyone after the movie, where RS and the people there already started the fire.
More people started coming as we continued the BBQ and it was really great seeing everyone again.
And it was really great seeing them not disappointing me as well for at least about 3/4 of the class turned up for the BBQ.
Had the usual BBQ-eat-talk-catch up-take photo for the next few hours before people started leaving for home at night.
Got really sleepy towards the end and went up to bathe and take a nap before the rest of the people who're not staying over went home.
Too bad I didn't get to say bye to them and thank them for coming to the chalet, because I don't know when will I see them again...
Only slept like an hour plus but felt like I slept for very long already.
And when I woke up at 12am everything was already cleaned and packed up at the BBQ pit and there were only 8 people staying over while everyone else left already.
Went out for a little walk with Theresa they all then stopped by McCafe for a while before returning at 2am.
Woke Gordon up then we continued chatting at one of the stone tables downstairs.
The uncomfortable stone table and chair.
The which-could-have-been-nice-sofa-in-the-living-room if only we booked Aranda.
Aranda was seriously not affordable anymore though, as it was only so thanks to class funds, prizes we won as a class back in sec 1 and 2 etc.
Reminiscence about the past for hours downstairs before the girls started leaving up for bed and it was just left with Meiling, Gordon and me.
Continued on until 6.30am before we went up to wake RS and BC for them to go home with Meiling and us to start sleeping.
HX went home too at around 7 and that was when I fell asleep.
Everyone woke up at 9plus and then we proceeded on to check out, Teck Li buying his breakfast at BK followed by all taking bus home.
And so 2r6o6's chalet 2013 came to an end and it was nonetheless still successful.
We managed to cover the costs too which was surprised me a little.
I've said it over and over again, but it was really really great to see everyone once more, and to see all of us still doing so well still.
We're already into our 9th year of knowing each other since we first entered NASS 8years back.
And it didn't feel like we're turning adults this year even.
The chalet felt so "underage" still since no alcohol and gambling was involved at all, kinda cool actually.
Well I can only hope that years later our friendship remains, and that I wish for success to everyone in whatever they do in their lives in the future.
Gotta catch Arsenal-ManC match now!!
Byeall.
January 2012 and we barely started the Mono.
It was still PTP and the only thing we can be glad of is that we can finally claim that it's our ORD year.
We're halfway there and it's only 11 months left.
Things are looking good although there had been problems now and then, obviously caused by the men.
But even some of the commanders don't take much effort in pissing me off too.
We were not exactly very close to one another, but judging from the time we had together in UIP, I thought that our platoon had the best commanders possible and could really accomplish something big, especially with our PS that good.
Come February, and BMT finally started.
Towards the end of Jan we were already too bored with all the PT and stuff, not being able to do things which are more soldier-like.
And when BMT started, we were yet given tons of jobs to do, even more tasks to ensure that we train our men up to the standards.
I am still questioning what are the standards supposed to be like, but that's not important anymore.
Through February till March, we had route marchs, BTP, Field Camp and stuff.
Field Camp was memorable, a long 7 days on in Tekong with a BBQ by the command team.
We did so many things, trainings and also fun stuff.
And when it's April already, it's time for our men to POP.
24km route march again, but this time as safety spec felt nostalgic.
All of them were so happy that they're finally not gonna get called recruits anymore, yet probably none of them knew that this is where everything begins.
We didn't really have a choice on who to keep and who to post out, and when our block leave ended and everybody returned, it's time again to go back to normal army life.
We had to train them up like we did, similar to Foundation Term except that they were trained just in the weapons they are supposed to hold and a secondary one too.
Heading into May, we are almost completing our AIT Phase.
Section drills are a norm by now, breaching, crossing danger areas and such.
However the only thing we fear is the Rotation 1 which is nearing us, having no ideas of what it is about at all.
Our PCs were also posted in as well just before May.
It's June and the two weeks of Rotation 1 are definitely a period of time which I enjoyed and would never forget as well.
Euro Cup was ongoing and we built up our cozy corner just so that we can relax, watch some TV and play PS2 as well.
Staying up late for Euro Cup matches, Champions league final etc. was more or less part of my army life then.
Even with a live firing on the following morning, it did not stop me from catching the Champions League final.
MTI instructors are a new thing to us, and we had to go through tests under them.
It was actually less tough than we thought it would be, and two weeks quickly passed by.
It was only then that we realized SCS really didn't teach us much, and that unit was when we really learnt much more about combat and stuff like that.
On the Saturday just after Rot1 finished, we started our weekly trips to Marina to help out with the NDP rehearsals.
That continued through July as well and is also so-called one of the highlights of my time in 2SIR.
Helping out in NDP rehearsals are not fun, pushing barricades are not fun, having nowhere comfortable to stay is not fun.
But the experience is definitely enjoyable as we hanged out with each other when not in camp, and of course because of the less time we had to train with makes our life better too.
From August to September to October were the times I couldn't really remember well.
Things were really messy, training schedule changing every now and then.
We didn't know what to expect after NDP and towards Rotation 3, especially with the involvement of terrex.
There was a time we had much preparations to do for our 50th Anniversary but that's about it.
We did some training to clear our VOC.
I also cleared my IPPT sometime somewhere and gotten Gold again.
Trainings and some outfield now and then to make sure we don't lose our skills too much.
Blah blah blah.
Come October and we were so excited because it's just two months left.
Just two months.
And a long two months it was indeed.
Around two weeks of terrex training was all we had, before we had to go for Rotation 3.
And this time round, it wasn't as easy as Rotation 1.
Not at all.
Programs were often not briefed to us beforehand and we had to deal with many last minute changes.
Play by ear is a phrase often heard but not often liked by us.
We still managed to try and make the best out of things and have fun during training and outfield, and there are definitely times we can never forget.
The first time we did camo net and lagger, working with our vehicle commanders.
Second year commanders got posted in as well and we were so excited back then seeing them, which also reminded of ourselves a year ago.
People start to not give a shit due to ORD, and this in fact had been happening for months already for some.
But a group of commanders still committed to their jobs are pushing each other on.
Rotation 3 finally ended on the first week of November.
It was not a sense of exhilaration or excitement; it was a great sense of relief.
We are finally done with this.
Problems still seem to surface more than ever, and I really don't exactly know how I can just leave everything behind.
To me it seems like everything is still going on and I started something but leave halfway through.
Yes the world definitely will still be progressing without me, but it seemed kinda wrong to me at the same time.
Then again, I once told myself that no matter what circumstances, I would never sign on/extend.
And even if I did, I won't be in 2SIR anyways.
I tried to not leave any regrets by spending my last week in camp, with the men.
And I know I did the right thing.
My pink IC came back to me on 7th Dec and I know this is the end of my journey here, for now.
A supposed 2012 review became a reflection of my life in 2SIR in my second year of NS.
Of course there are still many thoughts that I have not pen down yet, but it's not needed since they will stay in my mind forever.
Some time from now when I look back here at this post again, I'll remember that my time in 2SIR and NS had not been wasted and see how much I've learnt from it.
NS had taught me a lot and even though I see many people denying that NS is useful or what, I can see that NS changed them, usually, for the better.
It's almost a week into 2013.
I haven't had a plan of what I want for the year at all.
To work? Get driving license? Commit myself to Scouting?
Sometimes I tend to over-think yet not take any actions at all.
What I know is that, I'll have to take this time to continue to live my life to the fullest.
Byeall.
Finally back from my Krabi trip this evening at 6.30pm!
And here I am in front of my computer again, with slightly more than an hour left of 2012.
2013 is finally arriving soon, and while the year of 2012 had been an exciting and meaningful year, I believe that 2013 will be a fun-filled year filled with joy as well for me and everybody else.
Really feel kinda lost when I finally got back home.
And while it didn't really felt like three days had already past, at moments it felt like I've not been home for quite a while already.
Well I guess fun times don't last and it's back to Singapore, back home, and back to reality.
Tons of things for me to go and settle and do and think about.
And that's what I've always been saying and but not exactly doing anything about.
Sigh.
Krabi is a nice place.
Could had been a better experience though if not for the rain yesterday morning while we were island hopping to the Phi Phi Islands.
Still, we had fun and we somewhat made the most of our time already and that's enough.
Considering the fact that we graduated two years ago and are still able to go on an overseas trip together as a class, or rather half the class, it's quite an achievement already.
So kudos to Kenneo for organizing this as well, for allowing everyone to gather and have fun as a class even after two years.
One more hour.
New Year to me isn't exactly something big.
While we're at school, it basically means a level higher, perhaps new classmates, or even schoolmates, more things to learn.
But when I was in NS, it doesn't really count much except for the fact that I can claim to enter my last year of service.
And now that I've ORD-ed and am not a student, New Year isn't really anything special.
It's more like a big thing just because of how big people make it out to be.
The fun of counting down towards the new year together with friends and people, the excitement of the start of another calendar year with more surprises to come, the anticipation of what's going to be different once more in a similar time frame with ourselves another year wiser too, and many many more.
Still, a new year signifies new beginnings, perhaps as well as an excuse too for people to re-set their aims and goals for the next twelve months, commonly known as New Year Resolutions.
While New Year Resolutions might not always work out, well to me, most of the time they don't, it is still interesting to set your own New Year Resolutions and review it at the end of the year, or to learn about people's New Year Resolutions.
Sigh not really into the writing mood now.
Shall tumblr or watch TV all the way till new year, start messaging every single one of my friends personally, and then maybe I'll review my year of 2012 and how it was special to me.
Byeall.