Easy to say.

Had another stay-home day.

And gonna ball again tomorrow.
Pretty much of balling already this week though.

Hmm let's see.... shall start from Monday.
Don't think I did much on Monday, relaxed at home and breathe in some fresh air while thinking that I'll finally not have to drop by NAS for these few weeks due to CCA suspension for mid-year exams.
Mid-year exams. What a long time since I've heard of this term. Will get on more about it later.

Other than that, I think the only thing I did was to chiong through episodes after episodes of Criminal Minds Season 3, managed to finish with the season finale before heading to bed.

And I was supposed to sleep early, due to driving in the next morning.

So had my second driving lesson in the morning.
Nothing much. I don't think I'm all that good at it though. :/
Sigh hopefully with more practice I can get it done and over with soon and just get my driver's license already. :O
Reached home by lunchtime, had lunch and pretty much slacked all the way.
Went to ball with RW and Terry at night though, a suddenly initiated session by RW.

Some good balling session with them, haven't played with them for quite a while already, along with Pan and the others too.
Great times playing at 209 in the past. Hopefully will get back there to ball even more soon.

Another balling session on Wednesday with SH, Matt, Diane and Lenny at Kembangan park connector, or rather, Telok Kurau Park if it's the real name for the place.
Started playing quite late and ended late as well, went to nearby for some drinks and even Denie came by to visit since he's back from JB already.
Well, it was really tiring to play ball two nights in a row though.

Still, didn't exactly sleep early that night, again. Sigh.
Can't ever find a strong enough reason to make myself sleep early, yet I can always somehow come up with dozens of reasons to keep myself awake to the time where people are getting off their beds already.
Watched "10 Things I Hate About You", really nice show.
Wasn't sure how I came into contact with it but downloaded it few days back so when I thought, why not watch a movie before I sleep, I just happen to pick this up.
Watched a few movies recently.
Watched both "The Hangover" and its sequel for the first time, managed to finally watch Stephen Chow's 西游 降魔篇 as well.
After quite a long while of not watching any movies, or even going to the theatres, I'm starting to push myself to watch more movies again.
Perhaps to offset the negative atmosphere I always put myself in from watching Criminal Minds.
Was really wondering if I should watch more sitcoms and funny shows instead of chionging Criminal Minds as I am 'cause it's really weird to do so and while it's a really great series it doesn't do much to lift my mood at all especially when I watch like 2, 3 or even 4 episodes in a row or in a day.

Anyways, finally went to bed after watching "10 Things I Hate About You".

Woke up just in time for lunch, again, then spent the day not doing much again.
And by not doing much it usually means time spent watching Criminal Minds, perhaps doing Scouts stuff, and other random little things.
Not very productive huh.
Well, I don't think I'll be finding a job anyways, other than maybe really short term ones, can't see how I'll be a lot more productive than I am now.
Today was pretty much like yesterday so that sums up the past five days already I guess.

And speaking of jobs, and mid-year exams, the person replied to everyone regarding the external invigilator job for MJC.

Really kinda weird to do this though as I can somewhat foresee most of the people were actually MJ students while I'm not.
If only TJ is looking for external invigilator, I would've gone for it.
Sadly I haven't heard of any news regarding this.
Well, $7.50 for what I think is a not-too-tough job is worth it though, what's more is that it's only for limited number of days, with a reasonable location as well.
Hmm good enough.



And even April is coming to an end soon.
So many things happened and I can't even remember how it felt like a month ago when April was just approaching and the fact that I'm gonna turn 21.

Time really flies man.
And even though I'm not exactly working or doing things people consider productive or even constructive to their lives, it somehow still feels like many things are going on in my life and it's enough for me to handle at the time being.
Or perhaps I'm just trying to convince myself that I'm busy and occupied enough with things necessary to deal with that I don't feel too guilty about not working or doing something else.
Or maybe I'm just forgetful and all these things happen too fast for me to record everything down.
Whatever it is, life goes on and I can't change a thing if it's in the past already.
What I can do it, to mould my future the way I want it to be like.
Easy to say, not as easy to accomplish though.
But at this stage, what else can I do but work harder?















Byeall.

Free flowing.

Went for my first gang show in a long long time.
And hopefully it will be the first of many more campfires/gang shows to come.


Missed out on Kenneo's birthday party though, not that it should matter much to him anyway.
Really wonder why do all of my friends' birthday parties always clash with Scouts' activities though......

Ngee Ann Founder's Day dinner, Job Week, Survival Camp, now RI gang show, one in June gonna be the same time as June Camp, sigh is there even anymore birthdays to attend for which I will be able to do without trying to be at two places at one time?


Anyways, it's the end of the week and gonna be the start of yet another week again.
Don't really think I did much on Monday, not that I can remember of.
Had my first driving lesson on Tuesday.
Cool. Finally first time handling a vehicle.
Not truly handling it myself, with the help of the instructor obviously, but at least I finally started on learning driving.
From now on it's probably just slowly getting the hang of it, then try to increase the pace of lessons and to chiong for it.
FTT's on 3rd June, hopefully I'll be able to book a TP around end-July latest if not then August, would probably be more than ready to take the test by then.

Went down for Scouts' meeting again on Wednesday.
Did some sort of pioneering for that meeting.
Moderately successful I guess.
I realized it's not exactly possible to gauge the successfulness anyway.
Not at their level at least; and bringing things to our level just means that we have to step in, something I'm not too keen on since it would bring us further away against the direction we're supposed to head towards.

Thursday was most likely another zuobo day again, followed by Scouts' meeting on Friday.
Foot drill day but did not really accomplish much too.
Will probably really need an entire meeting solely just on foot drill for them to be able to brush up their standards and improve on it.
It doesn't seem to be of the highest priority as of now though.

RI gang show just now, not too bad, heard that it was much better last year though.

Don't understand why did we arrive so early, not as if we can fight for the early bird award when 02 will easily be the first Scout troop to 'arrive' and register.
Ended at around 9plus and reached back Tampines by around 10.30pm.
Decided not to go for Kenneo's birthday and went to supper with Chandan.
Stayed back after he left to meet Freddy for supper, still at 201.
Well if I couldn't make it for the birthday to meet up with the rest, at least I met Freddy hahah.

Been a while since I really met up and talked to him anyway.


And we finally have some progress on our overseas trip to Vietnam, hopefully things can be settled soon and it will seem like we are really going to go on an overseas trip together instead of just all talk and no action.


One more thing I realize, either kids nowadays really have no respect for people, don't know how to show respect, or they just have to be taught the hard way.
It's not helping at all.


Around three more months to University.
These three months are gonna go by really fast.
Hopefully I'll be able to land myself some really slack and good short term jobs sometime soon to at least balance out my expenses for the past few months.
And hopefully I'll be able to spend the next three months without regrets because this could possibly be the last period of time I'll really get to do what I want before life goes on and I get sucked into the no return path of adulthood and towards life in society.
Really really not looking good at all, life ahead for all of us.
Then again, somehow we will survive.
Some will do well, excel in life, perform, find what they want; some might barely survive.

In the end, we are all different but the same.

We walked similar paths, crossed each other's lives, and affected one another in ways more profound than any of us can possibly understand or bother to realize.
And while each of us end up on different sides of life and towards different sets of goals to achieve, the fact that we are all connected somehow in one way or another will stay true no matter how much time has passed.

Good luck all.
Because we all need it.













Byeall.

Entitlement.

Had wanted to blog like yesterday, I think, or few days before.
Somehow didn't manage to do so then.

Let's just start with a typical recap to my life continuing from the previous post.

Down for meeting on Wednesday as usual; pretty much nothing much to talk about.

Thursday, went to finally catch a movie with Chandan, JJ, GY at tmall.
Watched Oblivion.
Been so damn long since I've been to the theatres.
Not too bad movie, not exactly brilliant either.
Just nice I supposed.

It somehow sparked an over-usage of the phrase "are you an effective team?" by Chandan though.
That aside, hopefully that more good movies coming up will bring me to the cinemas slightly more again.
Not that it's somewhere I would like to visit every two weeks or so, but catching a movie at the theatres provides a different experience to watching one at home, in front of your computer or the television; especially if it's a good movie.
Next big thing coming up should be Iron Man 3.
Was never really a big fan of Iron Man, didn't even catch the first two movies in the cinemas; instead, I watched both in my bunk on my bed before sleeping using my Walkman Z.
Typical movie nowadays which attract people with the same few factors; dramatic visual effects, not-too-bad storyline, injection of humour every now and then, and the use of charisma by the actors/actresses, in this case, Robert Downey Jr.

And of course superheroes movies like these would typically attract comics and superheroes lovers as well.
Using the mega blockbuster that is "The Avengers" as a ruse to create more hype in all the movies filmed under the same cinematic world of course worked extremely well to their advantage too.
That being said, "The Avengers" is certainly still a really well-made film by itself and would probably garner just as much attention and hype even without all these.

Well enough of being a movie critic and stuff.
Still, one thing I just have to say is while I understand that everyone is entitled to their own views, I certainly still cannot get how people cannot understand that.
And also the fact that they just have to voice their opinions out loud to the world as if what they believe is not just their view but what they think should be 'correct'.


To many of such things, movies, food, games, shows, plays and stuff, there's no real definition of good or bad, but really to whether you like it or not.
Popularity is really more of a factor which determines how 'good' something is.
Then again, if you're trying to be objective, criteria, clear and well defined rules, these are what help to determine the quality of something, not simply based on opinions and thoughts because everyone thinks differently and sees something from a slightly different angle.
One simple way to explain this is just how a movie deemed to be good by international judges, professional critics and such might not be to your liking at all; while really popular shows and the ones that generate huge revenue might not even be consider to be anything more than an above average film.

I guess I still can't learn on how to cut down my words, still circling around this topic after many many lines of typing.

Sometimes, thought, getting things out of your mind is probably one of the better things to do because who knows how much can your mind really hold anyways.
And that's what blogging is for.


Moving on, it's another Scouts' meeting on Friday; finally the first uniform meeting of the term.
School's activities had been really disruptive though, cutting down so many meetings from the already small amount of meetings we could have.
Went to dinner at Mac's after that with few of the PLC members and Chandan too.
It was then only that I realized that it might have been quite a while since the last time I had Mac's.
One month, two months? Or even more than that maybe.
Thousand island fillet wasn't exactly much tastier than it's normal counterpart though, not that it was really important anyways.

Didn't do much on Saturday, just another rest day for me.
Although the week wasn't really hectic, I still feel that it's always good that I spend at least one or two days at home entirely without doing much to recharge a little and get ready for more things in life.

Well, not that I'm expecting much, and this sort of hinders with my productivity too, but spending some time watching shows, reading, or simply finding things to do could actually help to increase productivity when I'm doing work.
Okay and right when I thought of that, I just realized it could have just be a form of rationalization and occurs due to cognitive dissonance.
Alright, I read about it before but still had to Google it up for the exact terms.

Just imagine when I start school and really start learning more about Psych, I will be analyzing myself all the time. :O
Good thing, more self-discovery; bad thing, I'll probably just confuse myself more and more lol.

All that aside, I still truly believe that I need some rest at some point of time.
Reason being, everyone does.
If you tell me that you can work tirelessly 24/7 for whatever cause, I will truly salute you for it and you deserve to earn what you set out to get more than anyone else.

Truth is, even if there's anyone who can do so, not many can.


Met up with RW they all on Saturday too, at night, to discuss about our supposed overseas trip.
Made some progress there and it actually sounds like we are gonna pull it off soon.
Perhaps, as long as someone is actually willing to start doing something, or rather, everything for everyone.
RW was pretty unhappy at the start though, and he was so hungry too that I can't decide if he's more hungry or more unhappy at the fact that everyone's late despite Terry claiming that he's gonna reach in 15minutes.
He took four times longer than that, by the way.
Went home at 10pm to catch the Arsenal match.
Typical match by Arsenal of recent times.
Like what Fattah put it, Arsenal puts its fans through a lot of emotions in a game.
Usually frustration for more than half the game, in this case, almost throughout the game; followed by a sense of relief at the end of the game.
I don't get how it's so easily to get tensed up when Norwich had to defend their one goal lead for more than half an hour while we only had to defend our lead for 10minutes or so.
I guess, it's just the ability of Arsenal that puts its fans through all these emotions.
Well, at least they won.


Went to ball this morning, Eunos CC due to the bad weather in the morning.
Really really tiring session today though.
Felt sleepy almost throughout the entire day after that.
And keep feeling hungry as well.
Am hungry as I'm typing now with my supper in front of me but which I do not wish to start on until I'm done with this post in order not to disrupt my train of thoughts, if there's any, at all.

Okay and thinking about food just sort of disrupted my train of thoughts...

Anyways, came home and had been watching Criminal Minds for most of the time ever since.
Completed another 4 episodes of Season 3 and probably at least one more when I start on my supper.
Should probably catch up to the latest season before I start school.
Well, August's still kinda a while away from now actually, especially since I'm not working, not 8-5, Mon to Fri at least anyways.
Would really be good if I can find more short term jobs to maintain a certain amount of income though, and probably to keep myself occupied when there's not Scouts to worry about.

Passed my BTT and booked my FTT to be on 3rd June as well.
First driving lesson to be on Tuesday.
Hopefully I'll be ready for TP by mid-June or so, or end-June, since by the time I get to book I'll probably get July or August earliest anyways.

Okay, shall stop here for now.
Off for my supper and more Criminal Minds.














Byeall.

Many a time you move on in life, not because you chose to, but because you have to.

Almost always, actually.


With time as the biggest factor, and one that is non-constant, ever-changing, always moving ahead of oneself, how can one even take a moment out of one's life without realizing that one is slowly lagging behind what life has in store for him or her.

Was having a good long chat with Chandan, as usual.
Well, more usual in the past, thanks to the ever-famous MSN Messenger; which shaped many of our childhood and teenagehood.
The adolescent phase of our life is one that is extremely important in shaping us as a person, developing our character and almost entirely the reason for us in becoming who we are in the future.
You don't have to study psychology, sociology, or any other social sciences or related disciplines for that matter to understand this.
Because this is a phase everyone goes through, and thus everyone should understand how it affects each of us ultimately.

And for the people in the 90s, my generation, our lives were greatly affected by the now approaching demise Windows Live Messenger, formerly named MSN Messenger which would possibly still be the name it shall become to known as for years to come despite its official retirement after these many years.
These thirteen years.

And this is exactly the topic of our conversation just now.
This is exactly the topic which I believe would evoke the memories of many, many people simply just when the word "MSN" is being mentioned. 
It was fun while it lasted, but perhaps it's time we move on.
Or perhaps we already did, or so we thought; only to realize that we never did moved on at all.


Out goes MSN, in comes Facebook Chat, Whatsapp, tons of other IM clients and apps.

And now Microsoft is doing a last ditch effort in migrating MSN users to Skype, hoping to retain the users and their trust in Microsoft.
It however just seems like they're taking a step back.

Anyone who used MSN (well I know it was called WLM for years but c'mon, how many of you address it as WLM and how many of you would call it MSN, even now?) would certainly be well aware of the functions and options it provide for us.

Compare that to Facebook chat.
Now ask yourself, what did MSN do or didn't do exactly that landed it in the current situation?
I cannot give a perfect answer, and while I believe there was indeed a number of contributing factors, I can never understand which was the trigger which made Microsoft decide to close down MSN for good in favour of Skype.
Skype.
In favour of Skype.
And now that I am finally trying out Skype, in hope that Microsoft has a chance of gaining my trust back, it turns out that I'm not convinced by its efforts at all.
The limited options it has compared to MSN is just pathetic.
If it were to hope that with an "upgrade" to Skype would help retain or attract back its old users of MSN, it should definitely give Skype a real upgrade.
And the easiest way to do that? Bring Skype to become a closer version of the old MSN.

MSN to me was the optimal IM client.
It was simple and very IM-oriented, arguably the best platform for people to chat with one another; yet also providing us with a variety of options, allowing us to customize almost everything we can think of.

Of course, that was also helped much through the external client of Messenger Plus!.

Compare Facebook Chat with this. Now just think back to why you ultimately preferred Facebook Chat over MSN, if you did.

Yes it ultimately started going down hill, but at its peak, MSN was simply the one thing everyone is looking out for whenever they get home, or whenever they get to go on the Internet.
Phones weren't that advanced back then, aside from iPhones, there weren't many smart phones floating around and not everyone was holding on to an iPhone or any other smart phones; unlike now, where even a primary school kid can bring an iPhone around everywhere he/she goes.
Times have changed.
So have we, and of course the entire landscape of the Internet, technology and instant messaging.


I believe just in a very recent post I've brought up the possibility of Facebook getting phased out eventually, just as with every other social network.
Blogging was the example used.
And yet I forgotten that another prime example is MSN; an example even more suited for this as it is officially retired by Microsoft after thirteen years of extremely good service.

At least I still have my whole archive of blog posts dating back to March 2007 to look at; yet for MSN, sad to say, I have only chat logs of 2011 onwards to reminiscence about.
By then MSN was already on a steep decline and even judging by the frequency of chats I had through MSN, it was easy to tell how MSN was dying slowly from 2011 onwards.
Frustrated how my computer broke down back in 2011 which caused me to lost a whole bunch, few years worth of chat logs on MSN; the years which were also the peak of MSN, at least to me and possibly the people around me.
Nothing any of us can do about it now though.
Sigh.

And with this, it's just another showing from life that we are constantly forced to move on.
Sometimes by life itself, sometimes by time, or rather age, sometimes by all these various factors in our life.
May them be people, technology, places, politics; anything; everything.
We can be affected by anyone or anything we let into our lives; positively or negatively.
The only thing I'm sure is that, once you let someone or something into your life, it will be there, and it will affect your life in a way which you might not even learn about.
But it will, that is for sure.

Read this quote elsewhere, which goes "Once you have feelings for someone, it will always be there. You may not like them anymore, but you still care."
That is true.
Completely true.
Be it that you grown to not like them as much, or they left your life, or it's something and not someone.
You will still care, or it will still affect your, or had affected you in some ways.

Ohh gosh and the thought of social psychology is coming into my mind now.
Behaviourism too, but not as much applied to this context. Just came up on my mind zzZ.
Can't believe how I gonna cope with life in the next few years and onwards after I go even more in-depth into psychology.

But anyways, that quote almost exactly says how I feel about people or things, or life, in general.




Aiya, line of thought got broken somewhere somehow.
But I probably did manage to put most of my thoughts opinions views down already.

Bottom line is, just damn sad that MSN is gone; to put it in a general perspective, just damn sad that we are constantly forced to move on in life and seldom get a chance to choose.
While we do often encounter decisions to make in life, it is not always that we make the right ones and more often than not, again, we are forced to make decisions and just move on.

Okay but life's not that miserable actually, we just have to accept what comes in our way and live with it, deal with it.


In other news, I'm getting super hungry. :O














Byeall.

You wake up, another year is gone.

Ahhhhhhhhhh and I'm finally twenty-one years old.


Not that I was looking forward to it.

But many many years of not looking forward to growing isn't gonna stop me in that at all.
In fact I'm more or less halfway there to the stage in my life that I never ever wanted to reach.

Well that doesn't mean that I want to die before that but I would like for time to stop for us when I'm still at an age where everything and anything in the world doesn't matter to me and I can do anything I like anytime.

Guess that's never going to happen eh.


Just a peaceful simple day it was, went to ball in the morning somemore, just like any other normal Saturday morning.
Went home for lunch and did everything just like any other normal day.
Yes somewhere inside me tells me that from this day onwards, I will be known as an adult, at least legally, officially, because I've reached the age of 21 and it's not just my own business thanks to laws, regulations and stuff concerning people and the age of 21.
Well I shouldn't be able to see the effect of being an adult yet though; at least not so looking at the current state of my life.

Somehow "current state of my life" automatically makes the state of my life sound worse off than it actually is.
Well I'm actually quite enjoying this phase of my life aside from the fact that I'm not having any income...
At least I get to do what I want to do, and I know that I'm not completely wasting my time too.

Anyways, things were normal and I was left with 30 minutes before my birthday was up, while watching Arsenal - WBA match which Arsenal was up by 2-0 at that time thanks to a Rosicky's brace.
The next thing I knew, Andrew Sir gave me a call asking me to go down, and upon reaching the void deck Chandan, Terry, RW and JJ were all there, seemingly anticipating my appearance for a while already.
What a surprise it was to me.

Well the fact that Andrew Sir was the one who called sort of contributed to the element of surprise too.
Everything else can then be summarized by the video took by Chandan posted on facebook.

Went for supper after that at 201 and that marks the end of my 21st birthday.
Really appreciate all of these and all of them for taking the time to come down and spend the final moments of my birthday with me.

Never thought that they would come up with something like this and didn't even expect anyone to do something like this for me at all.
Really great knowing that I will always have this bunch of brothers by my side no matter what happens and where we were in life.

And although I did not organize some big shit event like how people do, somewhere inside I know obviously I want it to still be a memorable birthday, since the 21st birthday is supposed to be something of great significance, well, as sort of explained earlier.

The entire day was just like any other normal days, but what they did for me is already enough to claim that my 21st birthday was indeed an unforgettable one.


Then again, adulthood doesn't seem too much fun or exciting.
Not that I'm hoping for it to be so; but just saying that life still goes on and everything still continues.

It is now the start of another week and while maybe for me it doesn't mean much since I'm not working or schooling, there will be tons of people experiencing the Monday blues come tomorrow and the normal everyday routine carries on for everyone.

Life for me now is simply taking a step at a time, doing what I have to do now and planning what I gonna do next constantly.
Don't wanna plan too far ahead because plans change, and over-thinking about the future doesn't help at all.
Don't wanna just plan as I go along because the feeling of not being prepared isn't one that I really favour.
I guess the current pace of my life is almost just nice and things seem to be going well too.

Well, of course, like I've stated, except for the fact that money's flowing out of my pocket and I'm not getting any resupply at all.
Okay, at least for that small amount of money I earned in the OCBC job and the $200 from Year 0's IPPT Silver.
Year 1's window is officially opened now and I shall try to clear Gold standard as soon as possible.
In other words, as soon as I up my discipline again enough to train myself to be as fit as I was when I got Gold timing last year, or better still, much fitter than I was in NS.
Okay at least I know I don't have any problems clearing any of the other stations at all.
Not just knowing that I have the ability to clear the static stations, but knowing that I would have absolutely no problem in doing so.
This at least makes me happy a little in the fact that I'm not doing PT regularly but am still able to maintain my fitness in every other aspects aside from running.


BTT tomorrow.
Shall apply for PDL and book FTT right after, start chionging driving lessons and hopefully get my license just in time before Uni starts.

Ideally that should not be a problem; even more ideally, I will be able to get it in end June or early July.
Sounds crazy I know but if it's possible, why not?
The only regret is not starting earlier, if not I could already be like Terry now, already waiting to take TP test.


Failing to sleep early is probably still one of the problems I'm facing now.
And had been facing for years.
Sigh.
Then again, I guess it's already not as bad as previously and not as frequent.
Still, sleeping at 4plus two days in a row isn't exactly that great either.
And when I sketch, I tend to do it in the middle of the night where it is obviously a lot quieter than in the day or morning; using that as an excuse to sleep late isn't helping me to sleep much earlier at all though.

Still got no solutions on this.
Seems like this can potentially become worse when I enter Uni as well.
Damn.
Shall not think too much about it for now and just get to the bed to finally sleep.

May everything go well tomorrow and for the rest of the week; not just for myself but for everyone as well.















Byeall.

Some things you have to look deeper.

Took IPPT today. 
Missed Gold standard timing for 2.4km by a whole total of 1 minute.

Well, actually slightly more than that.
Disappointing run. ):
Especially when I can see myself acing all the static stations still.
Guess I really gotta start running, build up some stamina and train myself to be really fit.
Really want to get Gold for every IPPT from now on.
Probably won't get to re-test again for my Year 0's window, but Year 1 onwards, it's Gold all the way.

Year 1's starting after this weekend though.
And that means training must start soon rather than later.
Best to clear this kinda stuff as soon as possible after all.



I guess after so long, all the time's that's passed, all the changes to things, people, myself, I still do enjoy blogging.
Logging down moments of my life so that I do not forget them later on, writing down thoughts about everything, recording how my views and opinions changed over time; I'm a very forgetful person, and people, generally, lose sight of themselves as easily as how they lose sight of things right in front of them.
And I guess, I just enjoy writing in general as well.
Even with my sub-par proficiency in the English language and low level of expression.


Or this just stems from my inability to move on from things in life.
It seems like people has gotten over the stage of blogging; perhaps to them it was just a phase in their life, and now they have grown up, changed, matured, blogging isn't something for them anymore.

It's not the 'in' thing anymore, at least not like in the past, not the trendy stuff you see people talk about and do every single day.
You have Facebook, twitter, Instagram, pinterest, linked in, so on and so forth.
Social networks providing a level platform for everyone to share their thoughts, interests and stuff.

More options, more functions, larger audience.

At the same time it's not really tough to visualize how these will eventually fade away in the future too though.

Like blogging, like friendster, like every other things people abandon once they realized they don't need it in their life anymore.

And if Facebook happens to just survive till a hundred years later somehow, it would become a giant online cemetry for millions of people. :O
Read that somewhere and thought it was extremely true as well.
Things like this, they grow at such an accelerating pace that one day no one will be able to control it anymore, and when that day comes, things will start to go into decline at a surprising rate.
Whole same cycle again.
Rinse and repeat.


Just read about Nikola Tesla a while ago.
Chanced upon some facts of him on tumblr and thought I'll do a quick Google about him.
It turns out that he was such a great man, but one that could possible be forgotten by the general public as easily as how people sees strangers passing them by everyday on the way to work.

His achievements had indeed reached us all though; and his mind is definitely out of the world.
A great man is certainly not judged by how smart he is, although Nikola Tesla was totally in a league of his own, save for a few special others, but what defines his greatness is his personality as well.
I shall not spend too much time trying to act all Google or Wikipedia on him, so do search him up using those to find out more about him.

Alternatively, this will be a really interesting and good read on him as well:
http://theoatmeal.com/comics/tesla

It will perhaps even give you some insights to Thomas Edison too; know widely as the inventor of light bulbs.


These two days had been really alright, not as hectic as how I would've imagined it to be.
The crazy sudden downpour sorta spoiled my plans yesterday though.
Scout meeting tomorrow again, only once this week thanks to Combined Sports Day on Friday.
Weird reason to cancel a CCA session though.


Next up would be BTT next Monday, and probably from then on chionging of driving lessons to keep me occupied of the time not spent on Scouts or other personal stuff.
In other words, time not spent sleeping.
And that is exactly what I'm going to do now.














Byeall.

Clouded visions.

Sighhhh so fast and here we are at April 2013.
April, the fourth month, of the year 2013.
How much faster can time get?!

Not something I would want to find out though. :/

What's even faster is that my birthday's on this coming Saturday.
21st birthday omg.

Officially an adult and gonna face even more of society's problems and realities of life.

Everything too fast; hate the feeling of not being prepared for things at all.
Gotta get rid of that bad habit, man.
Choking me all the time even when I am clearly more than prepared.

Then again, what are all these preparations made for when we won't be able to fully enjoy what's coming ahead for us, since we are always looking ahead and trying to prepare for what's next?

Always making preparations so that we can get ready and all, but when things come we simply just go over it and then towards preparations for the next phase and that's all.


Some things to think about.

And why think so much if thinking too much is not good at all?

Too much or too little of some things are never too good; life is all about finding the balance.
Sometimes we've got the answers inside us, we are just clouded by our own thoughts at the moment and are not able to see what's right in front of us, unable to make the best decision for ourselves.










Byeall.

Sine curve.

Went over to Heng Jing's birthday last Saturday.

Visited KY Sir's baby shower before that too.
And then at night went to take a look at Survival Camp again.
Went to visit Survival Camp the day before too, for a short few hours, with Chandan.

Can't remember what I did for Sunday, shouldn't be much worth remembering.
Just some time to rest after rushing to places again.
And that continued for a few days after too.

Went down to NAS for Scouts' meeting on Wednesday again.

Met up with BMT mates on Good Friday over at Vivocity for steamboat dinner.
Really great to see them again after this long.
And just two years ago, we were only a week away from POP, still fresh soldiers enlisted for a mere two months.

Now here we are, all completed our NS, and ready for our next phase in life.

Met up with Kel and YG earlier to buy birthday present for JK.
Met at Dhoby Ghaut and ended up walking everywhere around the area, to Somerset, back again, and all around.
Took the train down to Vivo quite a while later to continue our gift-shopping.
Finally sat down at 5plus and got some rest while waiting for everyone else to arrive so we can start our dinner.
The rest all came like 6plus 7, we finally met up, went in, and started on our dinner and "reunion session".
So much we've grown, yet some things never changed.
Enjoyed how we share our army stories after we've parted ways; as well as the fun and tough times we all shared in our nine weeks together.
The first nine weeks into army life.
The first group of people I've met and lived with together; people I've seen five days a week, almost twenty four hours per day, and buddies I've trained with every outfield.

We have crossed each others' paths at that time; and definitely made an impact to each others' lives somehow.
Hope that everyone will be able to continue on smoothly in their lives and towards where their dreams and goals lie.
Our lives crossed paths at that time; and it was definitely the start of something special and not something which happened by chance.


Met up with Kel and YG again the next day to go for JK's surprise birthday 'party'.
Well he didn't seem very surprised but I bet he certainly appreciate everyone's presence and his gf's efforts in putting this together.
Took me some effort and time just to wake up early, travel to Somerset, and then back again just after lunch but I guess it's a way of showing that I care.

Hope he likes our present for him as well.

And I still don't get how there are some days where I will have completely nothing on, stuck at home alone, doing nothing much, using computer whole day, doing Scouts stuff or just watching 'Criminal Minds' (not that I don't enjoy doing so); yet there will be this period of time every week or so, where I will have to rush to places here and there everywhere and get myself so busy constantly.
It can be kinda tiring too, but sometimes I do enjoy the rushing everywhere feeling; keeps me occupied at least.
Well the only thing is that I can become so occupied that I don't have time for work.
And I believe I have next to no chance to working at all already, perhaps except those short-term assignments and really part-time stuff.

Ohyea, I went to ball in the morning the day I met my BMT mates too.
Practically spent my day out since 9plus in the morning, travelled from Eunos CC to Dhoby Ghaut, and then to the many places, then home again, just that I went to Suting's house to meet him and Pan before finally reaching home just before 3am.
Sounds like a really pack day man.
If only everything can be broken down and be split up into different days.

Then after today, I guess it's the start of it again.
Gonna get to NUS for their medical check-up tomorrow morning, early morning.
Then back to NAS for PLC meeting.
Really don't feel like going for the meeting since I want some 'alone time' but well, I'll feel uneasy to drag things for too long anyways so might as well get some things done and over with; just like how I should settle the medical check-up asap.
Gotta go to temple to pray on Tues morning, then to Ubi CDC for e-trial for BTT. 
Following that will be IPPT at Maju Camp.
And hopefully what YG said was true, that Maju Camp will indeed be a lot easier for us to get Gold standard.
$400 is really what I need now man, especially when I'm having no income and all I do is spend, spend and spend even more.
Scouts' meeting on Wednesday, as usual, a full U meeting.

Then I guess there will be the usual break too from Thurs onwards, still no plans yet for the weekends but I hope it will just be the weekly balling sessions and nothing much.
BTT will be on following Monday.
And after that perhaps I will try to chiong driving lessons since I'm not working and would usually have nothing better to do.
Hopefully I can get my license before matriculation.
And I don't understand why the term 'matriculation'; maybe it's because University's at a higher level and so the terms they use are at a higher level as well.

Still got an ORD trip with PLCo7 to settle.
China seems like a really cool place to go to.
Hopefully we can pull it somehow and I will be able to add another country to the really short list of countries I've been to; as well as add it to my tally of number of times I've been out of Singapore.
Of course the tally doesn't include Sentosa, Ubin and such places.

Not too bad to be able to keep myself occupied and doing things which I can think of as meaningful; but I'm sorta beginning to see the disadvantage of not working and thus having no income at all.

Would be really awesome if I can start or continue doing more meaningful things though.
Stopped sketching for so damn long already.
Sketched for a bit recently but I should really find more time in doing so.
Really considered for a while if I should go for Lasalle but I guess I should do something more practical and on the safe side...
I should really continue and try to learn more new things though, not counting driving.
Since I'm not working these are the only things which can allow me to say that I'm fully making use of my time in life before Uni.

Okay that's it for now.
Busy period of time again tomorrow onwards.











Byeall.