So it's the last hour of the last day of April 2009.
Fast isn't it.
A moment ago we were all enjoying the break after sec sch life.
And bam, May's coming tomorrow.
June hols in a month, and JCT right after that.
And that means we really gotta study hard yea.
Gotta find time to catch up on my work already.
Been slacking a little too much I guess ;)

Have you ever feel like everything is so negative,
and that you want to just stop all these and take a break from life.
Well, on some of the days, some of the times,
I really feel stressed.
The problem is, being stressed yet not doing anything is just screwed up.
Sometimes, I don't even have the mood to do anything.
Studying just makes me feel more tired.
Yea, not even playing or what.
CCA isn't really helping much either.
Internal grading yesterday wasn't that bad though.
Improved quite a bit, though there's still lot more space for improvement.
Competition's in a month's time.
Pistol boys look so... damn.
473, 471, 470, 428.
If you're wondering, the last one's a left hander using a right hand grip.
470 usually shoots better than that.
473 too, and also he's experienced.
If I had not missed that card completely... I could've been above 475 at least and not 471 =.=
And shooting just 400+ is lousy for competition standard too.
But sometimes, I wish I can take a break, being so tired.

But there are times when I feel more motivated too.
When I feel I have to break through my limits,
and I just need to study more to achieve what I want.
Well, though I don't really know what I want.
And there's just this one thing that can get rid of all my troubles.
Not com games, not tv, not sleeping... well some says it helps though,
that is if I can get myself to sleep everytime I feel troubled.
Basketball seems like the only thing which makes me feel the freedom, the joy.
Haha too bad I suck in it and there's no time to play that much anymore.

Well the Labour Day tomorrow is really helping.
Letting me take a break, allowing me to rest for a while.
Letting me catch up on my work, allowing me to not lag behind.
Letting me play ball, allowing me to do things I enjoy.

Time really flies.
I don't know how many times I typed that in this blog already.
Haha. But it's true, one of the things that'll always be true in this world.

I just hope I really know how to make use of my time.
To be motivated to study, to be encouraged to do well,
and to be one of the best, to fully make use of my potential...

People asked me what is my dream.
And I got no answer for that.
It's not that I only realized it now but...
I really don't know what my dreams are..
what I want to be...
what I want to do...
or maybe what I can do haha.
Maybe I'll go around asking people that question,
to find out how many of my friends will become some top achievers next time,
and maybe through that way I'll be motivated to work harder.

And don't ever forget,
业精于勤，而荒于嬉

Maybe I had think too much. About the future.
Maybe I should think more. About my future.
Whatever it is,
it's the time for me to relax now.
To rest a bit, take a break.
And next year, I hope I will see myself as a different person,
and not this lazy......... slacker anymore. Haha.

I've always give people uncertain answers.
I do that 'cause I know I can't completely 100% give a definite answer.
I'm scared due to some unforseen circumstances something will go wrong.
Or is it that I'm too use to doing that that I don't keep promises anymore.
Since I've always been using, maybe, hope, sort of, probably, think so etc.
Hmm another thing to think about again...
Then again, there's no perfection.
That's why each and everyone of us is unique (:


And I shall end my post here.
The last post of April 2009.
After this hour past, April 2009 shall never come back again.
And we should also look ahead, marching forward into the future.
The future that we are so looking forward to,
and at the same time so fearful of.... at least for me it is.




Byeall.

Footdrill Instructor Course was finally over on Saturday.
Was the best training out of the 4,
cause there was no ff there during the training.
Did some drills and each venture went on to command the contingent.
Ended at 12plus and ate at kfc again after that.
Went to study after reaching home at around 3 at void deck with terry.
But didn't really do much since I was helping terry with his binormial =.=

Spent my day doing PI again today.
Went to cut hair too.
So actually did nothing much today.
Sian.
And school starts again tomorrow.
As in today, Monday, 20th April.

Well was going off,
but felt bored that's why came to blog.
Nothing much else already though.
And it's really already damn late.




Byeall.

Read many of my last year's posts at 1am plus.
Missed all the times during sec sch life.
Haiz...
It was like so freaking much more better than now.
An easy life,
slacking everyday,
chat with friends in school etc etc.
Now is like shit.
Everything is wrong.
Upside down.
Crap.

Okay maybe not that bad.
Just feeling pissed now that's why.

Tomorrow's FDI course again.
Should be quite slack since there's not much things left to be taught.
But the need to wake up so early during weekends..
pissing me off.
And for so many weeks.
It's like wasting my time.....
I better get my venture cord if I pass this course...

After that would be the rest of saturday and sunday left
for my PI 2nd draft and other homeworks.
Other homeworks should be econs essay, kinematics, blah blah.
Needa work hard on econs and physics man.
Needa work hard on everything actually.

Very messy now.

And after tomorrow it's the same again.
For so many weeks already,
and for many weeks more.
Every week is like the same thing happening over and over.
Except for a few things, test is one of them.
Chemistry test next tuesday.
It will be week 4 next week.
Okay so 7 more weeks left.

I still get pissed easily.
Sad.
However it's only shown when there are too many factors.

Gonna study after the course tomorrow.
MUST STUDY after the course tomorrow.
Then it'll be tv at home after that,
and PI 2nd draft after that.
Don't think will have time after that to study.. so it's sleeping time.
SUNDAY. STUDY.
Finish whatever homeworks I have.
And read up on econs and physics.
But no, intense mugging shall start for me next year this time, or earlier.
Shall take it at my own pace for now as long as I don't lag.
So needa catch up on econs and physics first.
Yea and I just hope I'll study hardcore next year.

Didn't study today.
But should be able to make it on the next 2 days.

Should study for chem test to make sure I don't fail too.

So next week,
Monday study chemistry,
Wed and Fri trainings.
On anyday I'll try to finish up work I need to do.
So thursday will not be my earliest release day already I think,
since there will be PW meetings on that day.
Though it might only last 1hour or less.
Damn that's still too late for me to get back to nas to collect testimonial.
Shall wait till I'm free to do it then.
Maybe can go back on fri first before getting back for training.
I'm not in a hurry to collect it though, so nvermind.

Time seems to pass so damn fast now.
It's like wow what the heck it's already going mid-april.
School started 2months already.
And though time seems to pass very fast,
I feel like a lot of things had happen everday.

The whole post is like messy, disorganise and things like that.
Also very random.
Yea but that's what's in my mind now.
Everything's like kinda messed up in a way or so.

It's getting kinda late already.
Still need to freakin wake up 6.30am tomorrow.
Shall end my post here.



Byeall.

Hey all (:
Had a normal day at school,
though it's my birthday.
Didn't expect anything to happen anyway,
'cause it's like that every year haha!

Anyway the last time my birthday falls on a weekday was sec2?
Remember sec3 it was Good Friday,
and last year it was on Sunday yea.
So received quite a lot of wishes from my friends (:
Thanks everyone!! Haha.
Really made me happier and I appreciate all of you as my friends.
Also for people who didn't wish me,
I still appreciate all of you as my friends lah hahaha.
So it was a normal school day... Hmm nothing much happened.
Went to the range after that for stock taking.
Sort out target cards, very tiring for me lol.
Cause it requires quite a high amount of concentration haha.

So after that went home.
Received more birthday wishes,
they are like spread throughou the day lol,
even 10minutes ago 11pm still got haha.
Just ate my birthday cake too at 10plus.

Okay so now I'm like finally 17.
Oh my freakin gosh that's like so old liao =.=
Imagine 17 years just past,
and I didn't really do anything much haha.
No lah learn alot of things lol,
came to met alot of good friends too (:

Okay did some GP homework.
Now must start study harder already.
Must do all the homework on time or before time haha.
Then can no need so rush lor.
If not lag behind = good game = exams die.
And I won't want that to happen.

BUT, keep feeling wanna play basketball again.
Nevermind there's still the weekend.
As long as I can find a balance between studies and bball,
then can! :D
But poly gonna start also,
so still must see whether pan got time to play or not lah.
Okay think there's nothing much else to blog about already.
Tomorrow will be the longest day of the week,
all the way until 4.40pm!!
Think group PE can play games lol => bball.

Shall end my post here,
not really sure when's the next time blogging lol.
See ya guys (:



Byeall.

Erm, don't really remember what happened the past few days.
Yesterday went to Old Police Academy for the Footdrill Instructor Course again.
The time was changed to 9am, which is great as it allows me an extra hour of sleep.
Ended at 12pm and went to eat lunch at KFC at Novena Square I think.
Went home after that.
Reached at around 3 and intended to study,
but didn't study in the end.
Had ice cream as the weather was like freaking hot then
and went to play ball for 1hour plus after that.

Friday had sports day in school.
Stayed back till evening for nothing.
Played ball for like 1hour plus.
PE in the morning ran 3.2km.
So it was quite tiring.

Thursday was as normal, nothing much happened I think...
Just lessons till 3pm and..
ohyea went to eat after that and played ball after that.
So went home 8plus that day I think.

Ohh so the tiredness started from then...
Played ball, fri ran, afternoon ball, slp late wake up early on sat,
footdrill course, afternoon play ball.
No wonder my muscles felt very tired on Saturday when playing ball.

Stayed at home today.
Think every sunday will try to stay at home.
If not everyday go out very tiring lol.
And can spend my day studying too.
But didn't really accomplished much today...
Sad.
Nevermind will try to do more for next weekend.
Since it will be a long weekend (:
Okay shall stop for now.



Byeall.

Happy April's Fool Day.
This just marks the arrival of April,
and that means three whole months just flew past in 2009.
Fast isn't it.
School has started for around 2 months already.
Cool, that seems like so long, yet so short.
8 weeks.
8 weeks just went past, how much had I actually learned in school?
Getting real busy nowadays.
Especially when footdrill instructor course started and
Project Work has started too.
Both seem to have a really tight schedule, haha =.=

Okay, so 9 more months left in 2009.
Sounds long.
But really, it isn't.
Didn't 3 months just went past?
3 more 3 months left.
Better spent my time wisely and cherish my time...
That's what I always tell myself all the time.
Yea and I spent all my time telling myself that,
not doing any shit. That's so stupid right haha.
Being so stupid and still so lazy, it feels like I am getting more loser -.-
Anyways, hope everyone has been doing well in school.
Gotta go sleep now, it's getting kinda late already.



Byeall.

Harlow everyone, back here again.
School had finally started again after the 1 week so-called holiday.
Felt kinda distant towards jc again though it's just 1 week not going there lol.
The 1week seems damn long too,
as in alot alot alot of things happen in that 1week.
Not really alot lah, but quite alot.
And that's also why my holidays just zoom past so fast -.-
So back to school, means more and more homeworks to do...

But now don't have the OMG-I-Wanna-Play-Ball feel already.
I'm glad lol.
Maybe I'm too tired and busy for basketball already,
that's why the feeling to play ball also disappear already lol.
Nevermind I can still play when I'm really really really free haha.
Maybe during the weekends or what.
But saturday mornings are taken up by footdrill instructor course!
So means no studying in the library on saturdays,
maybe afternoon still can go lah.
Although the course is only on 4 days..
but 4 saturdays means 4 weeks means 1month.
That's quite a lot eh -.-
Nevermind, as long as I manage my time properly I can do it! Haha.

By the way, yesterday was NAS founder's day...
Was asleep on bus 12 on the way home at 4plus yesterday,
but suddenly woke up at simei, the stop just before 201.
So smsed chandan if he's in nas and if I can go take a look haha.
Found out that the UG have parade and nazri is also there.
So went down to nas to take a look.
See all the people all so gay results then so good invited back for dinner lol....
So looked at the UG rehearse and waited till 6plus to see the real parade.
Ate 2 drumsticks and nazri sorta ate his dinner already lol,
anyways the food are for the UG, and we also scout so we can take mah haha.
The actual parade like so short lah -.-
Sedia, flagbearer march in, GOH walk past, then end already zzZ.
Then they like rehearse so long lol.
So after that, happened quite a few things,
in the end manage to eat dinner..... in nas.. haha.
Ended like 10plus and walked home after that.

Okay so having dinner now.
Shall proceed on to do my chem, maths and physics after that.
Econs is still kinda... undescribable... to me.... =.=
See you guys for now,
will blog more stuff the next time!



Byeall.

Harlow everyone.
Had Project Winnie today.
It was the NAS 15hours challange thingy too.
Went there to help out at 7.30am.
But starting didn't really do much.
After that near afternoon wanted to do more,
but realize old classroom block only got 3 classes =.=
So nothing to ask zzzZ. Only 1 song from there.
So in the end I didn't exactly do much. Haiz.
People were like walking here and there chatting with others.
Then when nothing to do I like no one talk to also.
Go play ball only lor.
But then feel so guilty for not doing anything zzZ.
Nevermind, my presence there is good enough hahahaha!
Okay lah no lah.
Maybe if the money very little I should donate some lol.
And teckli basketball so gay already.
不愧是basketball team de.

So shall start doing homework tomorrow.
3 more days.
I CAN MAKE IT. HAHA.
It's always been like that anyways.
Just that now is JC lol.
Nevermind this shall be the first and last time haha.
Next time before start of holidays must do half of the homeworks already!!
Haha maybe not, that's way too gay, maybe just start and do as much as possible.

Other than that, there should be nothing else already,
since my life had always been so boring.

So,
Happy Birthday Winnie :D
Happy Birthday Serene :D
and lastly,
Happy Birthday Suting :D

Haha may all of all your wishes come true, SOON.


Things Changed.
People Changed.

How I long for things to be the same again,
how I long for time to rewind back to then,
how I long that nothing has changed and nothing will ever change again.



Byeall.