Suddenly got this urge to just blog,
despite the fact that I don't really have anything to blog about.

Oh well, let's just think along the way, like I always do,
and continue blogging till I go offline later.

Today had Physics SPA, like almost complete screwed up.
I didn't know what the heck I was doing for like more than half the time lol.
And I can't believe that actually happened -.-
'Cause before the start of SPA I was still thinking there'll be lotsa time,
end up I almost had no time left to complete the worksheet. Sian.

Okay let's talk about last week now.
Hmm.
Last Monday was National Day Holiday,
so there's no school and yay one more day for break.
However didn't accomplish anything and so...
so... it just wasn't productive at all yea.

Survive the last 4 days of the week and was weekend again.
Did nothing much during the weekend too.
And training resumed again, with another 2 weeks left before CCA stops.

Pilot test for my group this Sat. Finally.
Now we can get this done and over with.
And hopefully score an A for all of us for PW.
Chem SPA's on next Thurs.

Okay 10.18pm now, paused for like 15mins or maybe more already lol.
Let's see if there's anything else.

Ohyea went out some other ventures to search survival kit items.
Actually there's nothing much left,
but it's not that easy to find them.
Okay maybe they are around just that we still can't find.
And I won't want to go all the way to Beach Road just to get those stuff.
So in the end just had a late lunch at Tmall mac,
then searched around the interchange area and got home at around 3plus.

I feel kinda slack lately.
Like didn't even bother to do any work. Damn.
That's not very right haha.
But felt that there's nothing much I can do too.
And that's definitely not very right either.
Well shall keep continue on trying to study.

Oh and I think 'mug' is really so overused.
Getting annoyed at seeing this word now.
No, actually, since quite a while ago.
Mugger seems to be becoming like some form of vulgarity to scold 'hardworking' people anw.
Or to scold people who study like shit and act like a slacker.
Or just to scold those who you assume/think is acting that way.
Anyways, it's just getting on my nerves.
Mug mug mug. Reminds me of 'emo' few years back.
I guess it's just the trend to have a sudden overusage of a certain word then...


And I shall study and be happy. (:
Will try to do so even if it's real hard.
But yes to me it's real hard, though I can do it anyway.


Okay I started with a blank mind and now this post seemed quite filled.
Still, some of the stuff which I always wanted to blog but would eventually forget while I'm blogging are not coming out yet.
Nevermind, they will eventually be on here if it is to be.


Shall continue blogging another time and leave it for now.
Going off in a while's time.
Had tried to off my com early these days,
though that doesn't make me sleep any earlier.... -.-

Till then.





Byeall.

Hello all.

Was in a foul mood since Thursday night.
But it's okay.
Just screw it.
I don't give a damn anymore. Haha.

Finally FIC is over. No need go back there anymore.

How about you think about how screwed up yourself is, before saying others.

Maybe it's just that I can't take jokes.

Tranquilizer. I need tons. It's not gonna work out anymore.

It is not even funny in the first place.

Screw yourself.

Go and think about it and reflect about your actions and words.

Maybe you just need a brain operation to get a new brain.

Please go to the shop and get a brain.

Doing all these, you chose it yourself so stop complaining.

It's not like the whole world is about you, it revolves around the freakin sun damn it.

Maybe you can put yourself into other people's shoes first before talking some crap.

I don't really really don't understand a freakin shit out of this.

You put yourself into deep shit, get your ass out of it yourself.

Stop talking like a retard and laughing like an idiot.

No maybe it helps, in one way or another.

Maybe you should look at the mirror think about yourself and wake up.

Maybe you don't even have a brain.

Don't think of depending on others 'cause we did our best to help and you should do yours too.

Working together is really a tough thing. This is all PW teaches us.

Yes that is to prepare us for the effed up world we gonna experience in the future.

I already don't know what to say anymore...

It's okay, but then again, maybe not.

Mind your attitude for goodness sake.

If you are really that busy how about taking away some of your so-called commitments.

Just because you don't see it doesn't mean it's not happening.

Assume. I really hate this freakin thing which people always do, and it never fails to annoy me.

Sometimes you just must let things go.

PW only show us the amount of screwed up people we would eventually meet in life.

My mind is in a mess now so yea random.

I hope my mood has gotten better but maybe not but then again just screw it.

How about learning to be a better man instead of screwing up everything.

PW. It brings frustration, stress, sadness, randomness, screw our life, and I don't see any freakin need for all these to happen.

Read the instruction manual and learn how to use your brain the right way damn it.

Heal the world. Save it. Make it a better place and don't screw anything up anymore. Please.

Stubborn =/= Perseverance. Stop being so stubborn and listen to others.

If you cannot juggle all these, stop. It's as simple as that.

It's all about you, what's wrong with your mind anyway.

Learn how to let things go, I know it's hard, sometimes I can't do it too.

But it is not funny anymore.

To end all these suffering you just need to let go, is it that hard to do?

How about you just end it all now. At this time.

Sometimes I just don't feel like talking.

If you do not start using your freakin brain now,

And that's just so brilliant. Wonderful. Fabulous.

C'mon, so you think you are the only one with lack of time?

You are not even having too little time, we all have the same amount of time, it depends on how you use it.

So only you have this much things to do and settle?

Think about others, you are too ignorant.

Silence is golden. Especially when nothing good comes out from your mouth. Not in a million years anyway.

I am an impatient person with a bad temper. So sorry for that but that's me.

Yes you have a freaking ton of excuses but I don't give a damn.

All these are not able to be contained anymore. So screw it.

Being extra and adding on unnecessary comments is not needed.

Just shut the hell up and get your ass off at this moment.

Maybe you don't know what is call irritating and annoying, but that's strange since you a perfect example of them.

Great. Just great.



I congratulate you if you had been able to read this whole chunk of text.
And I apologize if you feel that I'd wasted some of your life away.
Leave me a tag or talk to me if you were able to read everything, and maybe understand.
This is some random crap there.
So-called funny jokes won't help much here don't even try it out.

Sometimes people just need to .

Sorry but I'm just that short-tempered. Tried my best. Can't help it if........ ,.

Just so melancholic.
Artistic temperament.



Tomorrow's National Day.
Had FIC test today.
Everyone today passed.
That's damn great.
So for many weeks to come, there will be more venturing activities.
For many weeks to come, there will be more PW to do.
For many weeks to come, we needa study for promos.
For many weeks to come, there will be no more dota :D
For many weeks to come, there will be even more weeks behind them.

Let's live in the present.
And I will try my best to put the past away,
the only way is to look into the future.


But, so lost. Can't seem to find the right way out of this.... just feel so left out.


It just can't seem to stop huh.

Nevermind this shall be it.





Byeall.

Hello all.
Realized I haven't been blogging for quite a while already,
so decided to blog a little bit since it's a new month now (:
And it's also the 201st post.

So for the past month it's all normal going to school, studying etc.
And trainings resumed already, but will end in quite a few weeks time
for us to study for promos.

As for venturing, FIC test date is finalized to be 1 week later, next Sat.
But due to some reasons we weren't able to train the scouts today...
Okay nvrmind I'm sure we'll find a way lol.
Maybe can do it next week scout meeting since I have no trainings :D

And we finally went to watch Harry Potter yesterday.
Haha, like after so damn long. Kept delayin the movie outing.
And almost can't go and watch yesterday somemore -.-
Thanks to my cca teacher and my captains letting me go
and skipping PT then can make it in time haha.
Then 8.15pm show already end at 11plus,
imagine watch 9pm then even worse lol.
However the show a bit boring and too long,
and no much exciting parts.
The tone of the movie also getting more and more negative.
And the only more touching part is when Dumbledore died at the end,
even then, the last part ended just too soon.
With the whole front part of the movie being quite sianzxes.
But it's still okay lah overall I think.

Okay so PW really is screwed.
Haiz.
EoM not yet settled,
pilot test not yet settled,
WR not yet started,
still got so many other things to take care of.
And needa start studying for promos quite soon too.
The days of slacking in Secondary School is long gone walao.
Nvrmind but sometimes we study hard play hard.
And need to exercise and keep fit too.
So later will be going out to play basketball haha.

And I think I missed gold for napfa by 1s in 2.4km -.-
And I deproved by a holy 0.5s in shuttle run wtheck.
The good thing is got A for SBJ again.
And also 11pull-ups did the job.
But should train to do more lol.

Okay I think I've blogged enough already...?
Couldn't really think of any other things to post.
Hmm ohya I was sick for a few days last last week.
Went to school on Friday then realize fever and got sent home zZZ.
Didnt went to school on following Monday too.
Then zhengwei was absent for 4days before I fell sick.
And the following week Friday he was gone again till last Thursday lol.
Missed so many lectures can die aleady leh haha.
I attend the lectures also like 50% understand only, so sian.
Especially physics even worse. Damn must find help soon -.-

I think I shall stop here now.
Should be going out soon in less than half an hour's time.
Wish that everyone will have wonderful results and stay healthy (:




Byeall.

200th Post.
Shall blog about my not-very-nice results first.
Actually it should be very-not-nice.
Okay.
GP 38.5, E
Math 35.9, S
Physics 38, S
Chemistry 54, C
Econs 41.3, unknown.
Shall not say the percentiles lol.
Okay maybe except for chem,
since it's like the only subject I did well in.
Ranked 67 and 89%.
I just hope I can maintain this during promos -.-
And of course Math will be improved.... hahaha.
Just need to find a way to fix my physics.... haiz.

Okay so that aside,
finally it's normal schooling days again.
Till like 80days later and it'll be promos.

And weekends are like no more due to various venturing activities.
Not all weekends... but, still quite a lot to me.
And that's how I screwed my physics basically haha.

Organic chem is like full of memorizing...
That is especially bad for people like me with BAD memory.
If I screw this whole chunk of organic chem,
my chem won't even be able to get an E during promos.
So I better listen during lectures and revise my work well from now on...

CCA are still not resuming yet.
They will be resuming from next week again though....
Means everyday reach home like 5,6plus.
Not as bad as some others though.
So hope that I can use the little extra time which I have more of than the others to study harder.

Ohhh..
I just got reminded of my 2nd CCA though.
Everyone's busy.
But for different reasons.
People complain.
Complain that they have no time.
So why exactly do they not have time?
'Cause they're not managing it correctly?
Sometimes I see that I have lots more activities than others,
yet they always seem to be busy here and there and doing nothing.
People are going out.
People are playing.
People complain they have no time.
And the reason is too busy due to CCA and activities blah blah blah.

No more crap.
And I will not do that too.
This is to remind myself that,
even with shooting, even with venturing already part of my life,
this is what I chose for myself.
I will follow this path,
I will walk out of this,
I will accomplish what I need to do and score well for my promos.

Even if I play a lot,
even if I keep slacking,
even if I don't feel like studying,
it's my fault and there's no one I can blame.
I can't even blame the lack of time,
don't think that it do nothing,
it'll get its revenge and you will find yourself left with little time before promos.
Time is slowly slipping from you second by second.
Complaining doesn't make it any better.

What I do is base on my own decisions.
I will make good decisions and choices.
I will do what's best for myself.
I will study,
and I will rest when needed.
I will relax and play and exercise,
but I will make sure I do my work.

I need to change my attitude.
I will make sure I do well for my promos.

80 more days to promos.
This 80 days,
some will be used for rest,
some will be used for relaxing,
others will be used for studying.
I will do it because I can do it.
I'll do enough to get me good grades for promos.
And for A levels, I'll do enough to get me everywhere.

I will manage my time well.
I will know when to stop slacking,
and when to start studying hard.
80 days isn't very long.

I will be able to manage stress.
Sufficient stress pushes me higher.
And excess stress will be relieved.
Either through basketball, chatting, blogging.
I will get rid of pressure and study in good condition.

I will be confident when I step into the exam hall 80days later.
I will walk out with a smile because I know I did well for it.
I will get home and rest as a reward for completing my papers,
and to get ready for the next one.

And I will receive my results with pride.

Nov and Dec will consist of various venturing activities.

But I'll be able to slack after doing well for my promos (:


I will revise my work before school starts next year.
I will start studying real hard next year April.
I will do it.
Because I can do it.
Firstly I will achieve my potential.
Then I'll breakthrough my potential.

This post may be long and crappy.
But I will do it.
I hope all of you will too.


It's all about your will.
Determination.

And your desire to get what you want.
If you really want it,
the only one who can make sure you will get it is yourself.

I want it, I will get it.

Study and be happy everyone. (:





Byeall.

Today's our Youth Day make-up holiday.
But sorta completely wasted it since I didn't do anything except slacking.
And from tomorrow onwards it'll be normal school days.
Boring, uninteresting, tiring blahblahblah school days.
Haiz.

Guess that starting from tomorrow needa do all the tutorials and listen during lectures.
This will increase the chances of me not needing to worry about studying for promos.

And freak, now Monday and Thursday both will end 50mins later.
What's more is Monday we'll have 2 and a half hours of break,
only 2 lectures, 1 tutorial and 1 practical.
And that makes me go home at 4.40pm.
How great is that.
And Thursday, the 'sian-but-slack' day now ends at 3.50pm with a maths lesson.

Don't know whether tomorrow got training.
Don't think have.
But don't really bother to find out also lol.
Wed and Fri ends at 3.20pm and 12.30pm,
too bad those are the days with CCA.
Tuesday ends at 4.40pm too with PE.
Now I really need to make use with the extra extra breaks to study,
and not wasting my time stoning and doing nothing.

And it's just like 12weeks to promos.
Okay actually a bit more than that.
So it's around just 3months.
That'll be so fast, too fast.
Gotta work harder already,
if I want to promote to J2 lol.

Besides that there is still venturing.
2 of us had gotten standard already.
So the rest will get it after the night hike, and the VLC.
And the cord.... don't know if I am able to get it.
The hike is the only hardest part.
And what's stopping me is the time consumption by it.
Well I'll see what I can do in the future.
Since it has demoted from a PSA hike to the cord hike,
should be slightly easier...

And December hols start around 1 and a half month after promos.
Must learn to make use of the time to.... study, okay and rest haha.
Recharge enough for next year first.
Next years gonna go even faster...
just like during sec4.....

Okay I think I shall stop blogging here.
And the next post will be my 200th post.
Just that don't know when will I post it.

Enjoy your school, study and be happy (:




Byeall.

Hello.
So we're back from solo night.
Spent less than 24hours in pulau ubin this time,
but it seems damn freaking long lol.

So a lot of the things we brought were not used.
After we took out the only few things we can bring into the forest and bundle it up,
we were blindfolded and thrown inside already...
though actually our campsites quite near from each other lol.
Just a lot of trees and obstacles so can't see.

It's around 3pm when we were thrown in.
And yea, our watches were confiscated so can't tell the time inside zzzZ.
So I built a basha first, though I would eventually dismantle it and rebuild again lol.
After that went to collect firewood.
But basically everywhere is firewood also.
Then damn sian go make one mini gateway to my campsite.
After that I decided to rebuild my basha so took the gateway down lol.
Anyways the basha v2.0 looks quite stable and okay.
Maybe just a bit low only, and hard to get in.
Then my firepit is beside the basha.
Should have change the position a bit,
then at night can let the smoke come in to drive the mosquitoes away lol.
So it's just collecting firewood all the way.
And stoning at times.
Then got once suddenly hear someone whistling.
JJ was whistling the scout hymm lol.
Then I go whistle back a bit also haha.
After a while when leaders first time visit us they say 5pm.
Okay so just continue collect firewood.
Wait till sky a bit dark liao then try to start fire.
Then is not I can't start fire,
is I strike the matchsticks all cannot make it -.-
Only one got some sparks only.
Then the rest all the head rubbed off.
Don't know I strike too hard or what.
But the last time I used matchsticks it was okay what zzZ.
So I go blow the whistle 'cause emergency haha,
no fire and it's getting dark.
In the end took the candle go borrow fire from renwei.
Walking back that time still must very careful don't let the flame die lol.
So in the end manage to have a good fire.
Just that sometimes too hot sometimes like not bright enough can't see.
But if want it to bright enough then too hot already lol.
Anyways manage to cook my maggi mee.
And after that sit there do nothing.
Just feeding the fire after I finish feeding myself.
Then really damn sian already.
So just spam a bit more then go lie in basha eat apple lol.
Suck the juice until no more to quench my thirst.
'Cause left quite little water only.
So lay there damn long don't know when finally fall asleep.
Then leaders come visit again.
I thought that time 3am already.
But they never tell me the time,
just gave me another bottle of water.
And today morning then found out they visited at 11pm zzZ.
Means I slept around 8plus? Haha damn.
Then sleep all the way, think woke up once more only.
And the second time I woke up after leaders' visit,
it's MORNING, LIKE FINALLY.
I see the light.
Then I crawl out of my basha and decide to sit and stone a while.
But suddenly hear one voice ask me pack up lol.
So no choice just faster pack up and go back base camp lor.
Then do pt, talk to the rest, pack up etc.
So finally able to go home.

And so this is how I spent my weekend.
Felt that this year already suddenly go a lot of camps.
Like from footdrill camp till now keep getting involved in many scouting stuff already.
Okay the next one should be the footdrill instructorship test.
And we still haven't though of what to do for it lol damn.
Anyways things will work out.

So I am officially prepared for my physics.
Mentally prepared to see a U already.


Think I shall stop here now.
Maybe try a bit more to study physics a little.




Byeall.

Hello.
Exams are over for most people,
but for physics students at TJ like me....
Still got physics on Monday.
The thing is I haven started studying for it.
No that's not really the thing,
'cause a lot of people will use this weekend to study for it.
The thing is, I got Solo Night this weekend.
I think venturing is really taking a huge portion of our lives lol.
Like even more than my school internel CCA.
Solo night is finally back after 2 and a half year of absence.
So let's just look forward to it.

Okay so all the papers so far looks screwed.
Not really that I screwed the paper,
more like the papers screwed me though.
But nevermind.
Shall try to try harder and try for the promos.
1st major exam in JC was much like a failure,
maybe even more than any I had in secondary school lol.
Okay the JC standard should be quite clear now.
Let's just aim for a better result the next time haha.

So....
Finished packing for solo night already...
Tomorrow, just go there and enjoy.
Then at night, sleep.
Sunday morning, go home.
Study physics.
Then the next day, go get screwed.
Then, go home sleep rest slack play whatever blah blah etc.
Then tuesday holiday. Refer to previous line.
Then, normal boring school days........................

Okay nothing much to blog about also.
Maybe after solo night then blog about it.




Byeall.

Haha damn now I'm blogging more frequently again.
Am about to go sleep now, so just randomly blog a bit.
Today, I was able to study as normal again haha (:
Okay but studying past midnight to don't know what time isn't exactly normal though lol.

So I just finished gaseous law.
But if I just studied my way I will definitely miss out some stuff.
Heh, no time to care about that anyways.
Just think of getting through the JCT safely can already.
So I'm just left with alkanes and an overall revision for chemistry.
And it definitely seems like the subject I'm best prepared for,
which isn't very good because I don't really prepared for everything also haha.
That means I'll be even less prepared for the other subjects, which is bad.
But nevermind, I'll just see how it goes from here now.

Maths is like left with all the functions and graphs, haiz.
The chapters which I'm super bored at zzZ.
Don't really get why we are studying these weird graphs lol.
That's why not really interested about it haha.

I'll most likely finish chemistry tomorrow afternoon,
then try to do some maths at my usual study time.
The last weekends of the oh-time-past-so-fast holidays shall be
reserved for economics since it's the freakin first exam -.-
What a bad arrangement lol.
Nevermind I'll just try to chiong the contents on the 2 days.
And H1 is more source-based,
just hope I'll be able to grasp the essence of answering them,
then I should be alright....
This is actually good for someone like me who isn't really good
and dislike memorizing wall of texts haha.

And lastly, okay not really lastly, physics....
I think this is the subject I most fear....
Wasn't able to understand quite many stuff,
failed badly as the rest of the cohort did too for the last test,
having little time to study it.....
Maybe I'll just let it go for this once,
and try to save it with the last few months remaining before promos.
Still of course I'll study,
just that I know the grade won't be good, let's just hope for a pass.

Lastly, yes, lastly, general paper.
Haha.
Don't know what to do for this.
Shall just read some notes on the day before the exam then lol.
Hope I'll be able to pass, GP seems kinda... really really hard -.-

Ohhh.. and YES! Footdrill Instructorship Test this Sat was postponed! :D
That's super great news man.
Okay but not forgetting that solo night next Sat is still on.... for now.
Not really wanting it to be cancelled,
but for my physics and also considering the situation,
I kinda hope it'll be postponed lol.
But finding a suitable date again is kinda hard too.....
I'll see about that later on then.

Though, I don't know who are reading my blog,
or maybe only 1 or 2 people,
it's still a good place for me to rant/talk random stuff/crap/slack/whatever.
Then next time I can read it myself and think back about the 'good old days' haha.
Anyways, I hope everyone is prepared for the exams,
and don't feel stresssssssssssssed out.
Don't worry, be happy.
What an old magical phrase.
Talk to people like suting for counselling if too stressed anyways, haha.
I not as professional as him lah,
but should be able to be a good enough listening ear though lol.

HOWEVER, now I needa sleep.
So I shall stop here for this post,
and have a good night everyone!



Byeall.