Study Break.

Tomorrow's September already.
Means there's almost exactly just two months left till A's.

Two months.

Less than two weeks to Prelims too.
But sometimes just by seeing all the stuff I have to study for,
I felt as though I would not be able to make it anymore.


Anyway, today was Teacher's Day celebrations.
Sorta wasted my time in school.
The performance of edited Bad Romance by Music Box
was extremely entertaining and hilarious.
No sign of good singing though.
Other than that, the other performances were fine,
with a few being a little boring.
Didn't go anywhere after school too.
Studied a little but was too tired and unmotivated to continue.
Didn't go back to NAS either.
Just went home to eat bath TV and sleep.
And sleep more.
Woke up at 9plus and caught the last episode of Unriddle,
which is still a riddle.
Then came to use com.

Should I study later?
Or maybe I should just go to sleep
to make up for the loss of it over the past few days.
Don't exactly know why am I so tired too,
but somehow haven't been getting enough rest for quite a while already.

Guess I'll decide while watching the match of China vs Puerto Rico.
Tomorrow dinner with Andrew Sir and the others.
Maybe after that I'll just stay at home all the way to study,
that is if I can study efficiently and sufficiently at home.
Or maybe I'll just go to the expo,
provided that it would still be conducive enough.
Or any other places I can hide at to study.
And maybe just one day for playing ball out 'cause somebody had been
so busy all the time and this week is perhaps the last chance.
Haven't met up with panda too.
Probably won't be able to do so in the next few weeks though,
unless it's early next week.

Study Break.
Take a break from studying.





Byeall.

It might be a level higher, but I'll still go a little further.

TGIF.
Although I was already feeling like it's the weekends since this evening.
Okay not really,
'cause I would need to study like mad if it's really the weekends.
Or rather I hope that I'll do that instead of what I did just now.
Nothing.

Finally half a day of lessons, then it's two more days of self-study, and rest.
Should be playing ball again after school.
But just in case anything happens,
I'll just go to my backup plan of studying studying studying.
Just freakin' realized again that there's really too much to study for.
Had only been doing Chem and Math more recently,
okay actually ever since quite long ago.
And I realized even for just these two subjects there's
already a mountain full of information and stuff to remember and practice for.
Now if my two slightly better subjects is in this situation,
just what is going to happen to Physics and Econs?!?!
Die. It's the only word and the simplest one which can express my thoughts perfectly.

So what can I do?
Studying seems to be the only choice and also the best choice.
But how?
The worst is when you don't know what else to do anymore.
It's not like I've done everything I could already,
it's just that I've already identified too many things to be done.
Too many. Just too many.
Just thinking about it can make me feel like sleeping all day until A lvls are over and not giving a damn about all these.
Fortunately I'm not too stupid to attempt that.

Yes it may be a level higher than I imagined.
But this ain't going to stop me from going any further.
A journey of a thousand miles begins with a single step.
No matter how many more thousand miles is ahead of me,
as long as I'm willing to first take this single step,
nothing's gonna stop me.
If it's a level higher than I thought, I'll just go two levels higher than I would had.
Every level higher is a challenge to yourself,
and everytime you find yourself going to the next level
you're breaking through your limits and also undergoing self-discovery.
Even if it might be a hundred levels higher than where I am now,
I'll just make the effort to go another hundred and one levels.
To be at the top.
To win the rest.
To be the best.

Cool man so inspired by my own motivational speech especially the last part which rhymes.
All talk and no action is not going to get me going though,
just like how if I'm started nothing can stop me.

Shall go to sleep now and prepare for tomorrow.
And then tomorrow night it could possibly a night of fun and enjoyment with my notes.





Byeall.

To be the best, the best that I can be.

And now it's down to just three more weeks.
Maybe I should set a realistic goal to push myself to study more.
In the end it's always the stress that motivates people the most.

And I should really really start sleeping earlier too.
Earlier, not early.
Maybe like 11 everyday or what.
That will give me more energy the next day to focus in school.
Weekends too.
I should just wake up early to study
instead of sleeping late to study zzzZ.
And it's not like it's been really effective anyway.

YOG will be ending soon.
Who knows when will it be the next time Singapore's going to organize such an event.
Shooting event starts today.
And last till Wednesday.
Can't watch it though due to the most obvious reason.
Shooting isn't really that fun to watch anyway haha.
But still I miss the sport I've been learning for only a little more than a year.
For this week maybe I should just visit the range on Friday
instead of playing ball from afternoon to evening.

Okay just finished my dinner and now seems like a good time to start studying.
If I don't start now, then when will I?
I'll never be able to overtake the others if I don't start now.
It's not about just catching up, but about overtaking others.

It is to be the best, the best that I can be.

When I know that I need to be the best, I will.
And now's the time.





Byeall.

Pre-Preparation.

Yesterday was the boring long day.
Double chem, chem protected time, chem lect zzZ.
Didn't study for the planning anw.
Didn't study for transition metals either.
Ended at 3plus then got back to 201 in an attempt to study with suting.
Didn't mange to study a lot though.
Too long didn't do calculus and didn't bring my notes too.
Haha so in the end studied like 2hrs then eat dinner
then talk somemore with suting and went home.

Today was the Econs mock.
Almost didn't study at all.
Only read role of govt but didn't really remember the stuff.
Didn't use them in the test anyway.
2 CSQ and 1 Essay in a row can really be a killer though.
Felt damn tired and sleep halfway through.
Today's lesson was rather slack though.
GP discussed about philosophy.

'I think, therefore I am' -- Rene Descartes

Philosophy is sure complicated but can be interesting too.
I won't take it as an academic subject though.
But if given a chance maybe I'll like to study it more indepth.

Tomorrow's Thursday again.
Somehow every Thurs I'll get the freakin' tired until I want die feeling
in the morning when I go to school.
Thankfully tomorrow's lessons aren't that crazy.
Double GP at the end of the day should be the most tiring one.
Ohh and not forgetting Econs lecture zzZ.
Ending at 3 is quite good though.
Can go study earlier and study more before going home.
And hope this time I'll really study effectively.


Shall go off now in hope that I won't get the freakin' tired until I want die feeling again tomorrow.
Ohh and Singapore got a Silver medal now, in addition to the 2 Bronze medals hahah.






Byeall.

Same old thing.

Almost one week since I last blogged.
Had been kinda busy since then.
And there's even two days which I didn't use com.
The last time I didn't use com was probably during June Camp
'cause I wasn't even at home hahah.

Went back NAS on Wednesday 'cause I had to meet Jeremy Sir to collect the badges.
Stayed for the Scout meeting till the end.
Chatted with Nigel Kevin they all a little.
Then went home and rested a bit while waiting for Jeremy Sir to contact me.
So finally I met him at my house carpark to collect
the badges he donated for Chandan's Badge Patch Carnival.

Went school as normal on Thursday.
Then took MRT to Bishan straight after school to have lunch
and to help Chandan in the preparations of his BPC.
It's only halfway there when I realized he wasn't even going to be there
until around 7pm.
Luckily Jyang came and kept me company for majority of the time.
It's kinda stupid to stay with a bunch of Scouts
especially when they're the only ones needed to do the work.
Stayed till quite late though.
Around 11pm.

Friday played basketball for a while after school.
Weather was freakin' hot when we played.
Then I went to Bishan with Kenneo to have lunch.
So he went home after that while I go to the HQ again to help Chandan again.
Stayed till around 10 then went home with Chandan Terry.
Slept almost straight as I got home again.
And the next day will be the day of the event itself.

So Saturday was the BPC.
Went to HQ by bus with Terry.
The event was quite successful as a whole.
Everyone did their job and was tired at the end of the day too.
So at evening finally the cleaning up was done.
Then a short debrief and the committee along with some of us went to have dinner together.
In the end came back Tampines Mall to eat Mac.
Went home after that and finally got to use com.

Didn't do anything on Sunday either.
Slept till quite late.
Woke up, slack, then went to 209 earlier to take a look before having dinner
with Chandan, JJ, GaoYang Renwei.
Went home and watch tv, then watched parts of the match of Arsenal and Liverpool.

Basically did nothing today as well.
Was damn tired in school.
Intended to go study after school.
But changed my mind halfway through school.
Came home watched yog a bit, had lunch then rested.
And then I fell asleep until 8plus.
Had dinner and watched tv then I'm here now.
Think I'll be off to do some work to prepare for tomorrow then.






Byeall.

Amazing Crap.

Only did some work today.
Finally school's starting again tomorrow.
Felt like so long had past since the last time we had lessons.
Somehow nowadays even normal 2days weekends seem kinda long to me.
Probably it's due to the fact that I'm slacking most of the time
and doing nothing over that two days.

If I'm not wrong we're entering out fifth last week until Prelims.
Can't really believe the calmness I have while typing that,
seeing my not so marvelous results during the JCTs.
Well this week should pass very soon since there's only three days left
and I might be going to get quite busy.
Maybe after that I'll be able to sit down,
realize the fact that I don't have much time left to save myself,
then finally scream in horror and start studying like never before.

Indeed, studying like never before seems to be the only way to improve my grades.
Don't remember trying really really really hard for O levels too.
Just really really hard.
And I'll definitely need to put in much more efforts than that to excel.

I think I'm losing the ability to talk crap.
The amazing ability to talk amazing quality crap.
Of course I'm still able to talk crap.
But I don't amaze myself with my crap anymore.
Like I don't say something and feel, how genius I was to be able to think of something like that.
Something bad must had happened or is happening at the moment.
I don't want to just say crappy crap from now on. ):
Hope that from tomorrow onwards my amazing ability would return.






Byeall.

To the next stop.

Haven't touch any school work since Friday.
Okay actually I did, just a little, which is almost the same as nothing.

Played ball on Saturday.
Pan needed to left early at 5,
then Kent came at around 6.
So in the end the rest left around 6.30pm.
Then I went to meet suting and the rest for dinner.
The rest meaning CJ and Kenny only.
This time the dinner kinda fail lol.
Kenny reached damn late somemore.

Basically did nothing from Saturday till today.
Nothing.
Just slack stone stare blankly into space etc.

National Day today.
Or rather yesterday, to be exact.
Just watched TV for almost the whole day and did nothing else too.

Wonder what I'll be doing tomorrow.
Hopefully some studying and revision.
If only I had used the past 3days for revision,
it would be extremely marvelous.
But that's just 'if only'.
The past cannot be changed but the future is still an unknown.
The only thing to do now is to write our future with our own hands.





Byeall.

Even if it's just for a moment, even if it's just a few words.

National day celebrations in school today.
Okay let's rewind a few days back.


Monday was the usual slack but super sian day.
Think Tuesday was quite normal too,
went home just after Chem protected time.
First step towards limiting my basketball time.
Ohya but went up during assembly in the morning
to receive the Lucy Khoo Book Prize.
For my superb improvement in my GP from Promos to JCTs.
$50 Kinokuniya voucher.
Don't know what I should do with it though.
Only the top ten students with most improvement in GP got the prize.
And I'm the only guy.
Haha okay so proud of myself now.
Still remember my Good Progress Award during sec4 LOL.

Okay so on Wednesday I realized I didn't do 07 A lvls paper 2,
which I was requried to do for Chem remedial.
Asked Kenneo and ZhiYuan the day before,
both who replied that they didn't know/not sure.
And then when they went as the first group for the remedial,
they got chased out immediately for not bring the TYS haha.
So I went to order the TYS and bought a copy of the paper and started chionging.
Managed to finish it during Econ protected time
which was right before my remedial.
After that went to find kenneo to play ball again.
Somebody got owned real bad.
Streetball moves really give you a sense of accomplishment and shiokness when you succeed.
And crossovers are definitely my favourite moves.
So went home damn late.
Again.
And it seems like my basketball time was not limited enough zZZ.
Anyway we didn't have to worry about not having a ball to play already. HAHA.
Thanks to kenneo's 'brilliancy'.

Followed Friday's timetable on Thursday.
And so ending early,
everyone had nothing to do and we went to play ball again zzZ.
I really need some self-discipline on this man.
I wonder which is harder,
getting myself to study or getting myself to stop playing ball?
So I played for like four awesome hours.

And today's celebrations was kinda boring.
I believe the atmosphere was much better last year.
Anyway I finally went to study.
Intended to do that on Thursday after school
since I had tons of time and nothing else but time.
But still got tempted to play ball in the end.
But not today.
Ate with chankai then went to expo to study
for damn damn long.
Maybe around 6 or 7 hours.
I won't say it's productive enough though.
But the efficiency would only increases each time I study there.
Or anywhere else which is good for studying.
Complex tutorial 4 is somehow of a different level from the previous three.
Lucky got smart chankai to help.
And some other tjcians including Amanda and Yeeling went to mug too.
CK and me were the earliest and I thought that no one is going to study today haha.
Seems like I'm wrong but at least I studied too.
Cannot be lagging behind too far anymore.
It's always the part before the last set of sprint which is the most important.
A levels is not a marathon but rather many many many sets of sprints.
However it's only the last one which is the most important
and even if you got last for all the previous sprints,
winning this one would already be able to land you anywhere you wish to go.
My stamina always isn't great compared to people,
and I'm probably even slightly below average.
But when it comes to acceleration and sprinting.... that's another story.
Anyway me ck and amanda studied till around 7 I think.
Ate at East Point LJS for dinner before heading home.

Then it was just bath, TV, slacking etc.
Gotta give my brain a good break after studying for so long haha.
And also for studying for so long after not studying for so long for so long.
Maybe playing ball tomorrow again.
But I'll TRY to make sure from now on it's at most once per week.
Maybe twice.
I'll see how. ;)

But the number of times I study will still be more than the number of times I play ball anyway.
This is something which I will not only try,
but also must make sure that it happens.

The next 4days gonna be tough.
Depending on how well I discipline myself to study during these 4days,
it can potentially affect my Prelims results greatly.
Shall try to think of how to spend my time on these critical 4days.
For time is money, money is time,
it is everything we've got but also what we're losing constantly.

And today I woke up with a little shock.
I took my specs as usual,
the one which the right arm may break anytime.
That's why I never bent that spectacles since long time ago.
But as I took the specs, I realized the right arm is GONE.
So I had to use the other specs which I only wear
when on that day I would be playing ball since I have to keep my specs.
The thing is, until now I still couldn't find the missing right arm of the specs.
And this is getting creepy.
How can the arm of the specs break by itself and go missing?!
Whatever, now I can only wear this pair of specs and nothing better happen to it.

Okay remembered something else.
All I have to say is the parade in the morning is kinda cui
and the BB guy commanding is ...... he does footdrill like talking normally.
Lazy to continue blogging anymore.
Somehow things keep popping up in my brain just as I was about to end the post.
But I shall just end it now and save the rest for next time.






Byeall.