Had been able to study quite bit by bit for the past days, or rather nights.
Was only able to focus enough in the middle of quiet and dark nights to study.
Had always been so anyways.
Interestingly, can't really seem to concentrate enough today.
That's why I'm here....
Hope that after I finish posting I'll be able to study as much as possible before sleeping.

So went to watch Transformers today,
with quite a lot of people which I'm lazy to type out. =X
Overall it was a nice movie, and it's quite worth it.

And yesterday footdrill training was cancel.
So just went to had lunch and played ball after that.
Monday....
Didn't went out. Stayed at home and studied during midnight.

So just a few days left before school reopens.
Haiz.

Feel that something's wrong with me now.
My temper had always been bad........
but I am more easily expressing my anger now.
Not really keeping my emotions well too already.
Even pw group members said I'm getting more fierce o_O
Sometimes I do feel I get pissed off really easily too,
and feel like ranting to someone else.
So please forgive me if I had offend any of you all with my actions/words.

I hope I'll be able to adjust back to waking up at 6.30am everyday when school reopens =/
Let's just hope that I can get through this mid-years,
and also the end-of-year exams.
Then, I will, I will start to work hard next year,
work hard for A levels, work hard for everything.

If only I can just say all these and it will just poof and come true.

If only your dreams will become reality just because you are daring enough to dream.

But we all know this is impossible.
People say nothing is impossible.
That is if you work towards it.
Sitting here, dreaming, doing nothing won't get you anywhere.

That being said, I don't even know what my dreams are.
Guess the only choice is just to work hard and see where it gets me to.

Let's all study hard now for the ever so unpredictable future we are heading towards to.



Maybe all I need is a real break and a someone to talk to.





Byeall.

Harlow...
Once again blogging at an unhealthy time.
But nevermind about that.
Got people tell me my blog very seldom update ah,
so I now blog one more post lol.
Since I feeling a little bored from studying too.

Yay so I'm studying now!!
At this kind of I-am-suppose-to-be-sleeping time. Yea.
Different people got different ways of studying lah.
I don't care how as long as I get myself to read all my notes
and understand and absorb and be able to apply everything in JCT.
But really, starting to feel a little tired now.
Maybe that's due to me waking up at 7.30am on Sat morning,
and sleeping at 1 or 2plus on Friday night.
Nevermind I shall sleep enough tomorrow to make it up,
the I'll continue to study.
And all the way till exams.
And hope and pray and wish I don't screw it up somehow in a way or another.

But.... GP, Maths, Chem, Physics, Econs.
I've only touched on Maths and not even halfway through man.
And the second half gonna be even harder... graphing zzZ.
Still got the whole of chemistry and physics.
Economics isn't really that much I guess, for H1 econs that is.
Should be able to make it if I chiong fast enough few days before its exam.

Haiz.
Think I feeling hungry now also.
Hungry + Bored + Tired = Sleepy.
Somehow I can't or don't feel like sleeping yet though.
And I just amazingly turn this into some kind of motivation to study.
MOTIVATION.
As long as I have it, I guess, and as long as I'm disciplined enough
to stick to what I want myself to do, I will be able to do it.
Actually that goes the same to everyone too.

Ahh... the night.
So quiet, so nice, so dark, so mysterious.
It's like the best time to study and do anything.
Okay guess I'll try to finish MI and maybe binomial too before sleeping.
Everyone else please study hard too.





Byeall.

Harlow all.
Amazingly, okay actually not really,
still online at this unhealthy time.
Should be sleeping now haha =X

But nevermind, let's finish this blog post first.
Felt a lil bored so came to blog a bit.
AND I manage to start studying a LITTLE BIT today haha.
It's just so little bit but at least I finally got started....
Started so late all thanks to my high activation energy..
But the activation energy also varies in different conditions like temperature and pressure,
and I think my activation energy lowers as pressure increases haha.

Okay enough of that crap.
There's only 1 and a half week more to school re-open.
Damn.
That's not really a lot of time.
In fact that's a really little amount of time,
for us to study for JCT zzZ.
So people like me who haven't started studying that much,
better start soon, erm no, better start NOW.........
that is if you are still awake and see this now haha.

So after 1 week plus of afk,
got another PW meeting tomorrow.....
Haiz.
Hope it'll end fast,
not just the meeting,
but the whole PW shit thing.

Other than those things...
Ohya and VLC finally passed.
Learnt quite a few things.
Overall an useful camp/course.
And footdrill instructorship test coming up soon too.
Last footdrill session on sat and I certainly hope we don't screw this up.

As you all can see...
my life is, as I stated in my last post,
just full of studies, venturing and shooting, okay maybe not much about shooting now.
Hmm... and.....
It just feels strange.
Kinda long not seeing my classmates already.
Feel like year 1 have already passed lol.
Or rather it feels like it's back to those days after O levels
when we can slack and go out with our sec sch friends.
No matter what it is,
I can only try to do my best in life and not screw it up
'cause I will only live once and there's turning back too.

Okay shall end this and get to sleep already.
2.30am.
What a bad time to be still staying awake.
And there are still quite a few others awake too.
Nevermind I shall go sleep and eat more so that I'll grow more.
Haha.
Good luck everyone.



Byeall.

So had our competition today at SAFRA Yishun.
Lol it's kind of fail haha.
But nevermind, first competition for most of us so it's alright.
And we've been trained for like few months only,
how to compete with those trained for few years already lol.
Yea but it's a very good experience for us I guess.
Quite fun also, though I don't know why it is fun haha.

Okay and I really really really haven't haven't haven't
started revising for June Common Tests. JCT.

And there's VLC tomorrow.
Not at Sarimbun though, at Sembawang.
Yea but haven't packed my bag too haha.
So many things undone.
Somehow, I'll get things done though,
and not be like people who are just complaining and whining.
If somehow your life got screwed, blame it on yourself instead of everyone around you.
And if you want your life to be good and enjoyable, work hard towards it.
So that shall serve as a reminder to myself too and preventing me from becoming an idiotic freak.

So now, I have a few main things in my life.
STUDY, Shooting, Venturing, hmm just these few. Basketball, if I'll still be so free.
And I better make sure I do everything well especially for my studies haha.
And that'll start this July I guess....
Okay first post in June shall end here now.
Cya guys.....
Study hard........



Byeall.

4th and last post of May 2009.
Think I didn't mention about the footdrill camp in the blog,
though there isn't really anything to talk about.
Haven't been blogging much due to laziness and nothing to talk about too.

And a few posts ago, April just ended.
How fast is that.

Anyways, went to play basketball yesterday, finally, again, after 2 weeks.
And it is so-called the holidays now. Yay.
At least it still gives us time to rest despite the many activities and need to study.
Shall briefly write down my schedule to remind myself how I should spend my time wisely.

This week.
Mon, Wed, Fri - Trainings.
Tues - GP Tutorial.
Wed - Chem and Math tutorial.
Thurs - PW thingy.

Next week.
Mon, Wed - Trainings.
Fri - Competition.
Weekends - VLC.
Can't go june camp this year due to trainings =/

Following week.
Tues, Sat - More footdrill sessions for the scouts.
2nd last week already, guess should be more free by then... for now.

Last week.
Sat - Footdrill Instructorship Test.
Yea last week only has one day not free,
and the rest will be use for studying..... hopefully.

So i guess the leftover days are for me to study,
and also hopefully some time for me to relax a little.

So the ... AYG just pushed back our exams by one day,
and also the Youth Day holiday.
Wow, and Solo Night is suppose to be on that weekend.
How wonderful is that.
Going for solo night and coming back the next day for a physics exam.
Let's just hope I don't die halfway.

Shall try to complete the AQs so that I'll benefit on Tues' GP tutorial.

But before that, I shall go and bath now (:
And must remember to cut my nails =.=


Remember: I am not alone, I have friends.




Byeall.

Hey all!!
Most of my posts recently are all random stuff,
and most doesn't even have anything to do about what's happening lately...
Maybe because really like what I posted, nothing much happened or I forgotten haha.
But today it's JTS(Junior-Treat-Senior) for my CCA and we had bbq at suzanne's house.
The last bbq before that was... r6o6 chalet!! :D
Yea so it was quite fun,
and I though I should blog about something like that...
So next time when I boliao go read my last time posts at least not all is about how boring life is and things like that,
but also got some other events or whatever yea.
Like almost every other bbq I went to, it took quite long to start bbqing haha.
But nevermind, at least we managed to get the job done in the end.

When shopping with some others yesterday for the food and stuff too.
And yes, I predicted correctly that the food will be enough and maybe got leftover somemore lol.
But I filled my stomach already lah, and had fun, so it's... okay haha.
Also, we get to interact with the J2s again since our interaction is like....
Haha no choice since they stepped down after nationals which is like right after we joined.

Tired and lazy to blog down the details already lah.
Just went there at like 5plus to get the bbq started etc,
then the rest plus the J2s came later.
Played at the 'playing ground', bbq, chat, etc lor.
Haha, think only guys from tj know what's playing ground.

Anyways it's something like that lah.
And and the time we left school was also the start of CAN 24-hr marathon I think.
Still got people running and running and running there now haha,
if later midnight can't sleep nothing to do can do there see lol.

And finally I think I gonna play bball again tomorrow,
like after.... 2 weeks?
Omg like so long already lol.
Nevermind I'll get to play tomorrow. Yay.

Think there's should be nothing else to blog about already....
So I shall stop here!!
AND THE HOLS ARE HERE!!
Although it's quite fully booked with stuff like study, pw, camps, trainings etc already..... lol.



And the magic word is: Discipline.




Byeall.

Firstly, PW can be and is really a killer.

Secondly, don't think that you are the only one suffering when there's the whole world out there same as you and billions worse than you.

Thirdly, really, we are the same so try putting yourself in other people's shoes.

Fourthly, I freaking beg the holidays to come soon, I need some sleep now.

Fifthly, please, please please please get this done and over with as soon as possible.

Sixthly, then again, holidays or not, it does not really make a huge difference. Holidays are already sorta fully booked anyways.

Seventhly, I think I should spend my time wisely and start studying for JCT soon.

Eighthly, some people are bitches and being bastard to others is the way to go or you will be the only one being bastard by others.

Ninethly, I should try and find some form of relaxation or stress relieving methods, one that is not time consuming. Aww no time for basketball already.

Tenthly, venturing is part of our lives, treat it seriously, if not, at least treat it as a CCA if you are the one who is willing to take it in the first place.

Eleventhly, let me think for a while more, I needa cool down...

Twelvethly, getting tired now, but really, school's getting so screwed that it can be a real dreadful thing to go school.

Thirteenthly, our GP tutor is gonna have his last lesson with us on thurs, and for the next half of the year it will be a new tutor. Conclusion? We are so screwed.

Fourteenthly, not to forget physics tutor should be going on maternity leave soon too.

Fifteenthly, sometimes, like now, I feel so lost and I don't know what to do. I need to organize my mind and it's in a freaking mess now.

Sixteenthly, our exam schedule changed and the last exam falls on Monday which was suppose to be Youth Day holiday but it was shifted to Tuesday. Solo Night on that weekend. Damn.

Seventeenthly, lucky I am not like some others who lead an even more super busy packed life or I would have died already.

Eighteenthly, hectic seems to be the 'in' word, and really, it's not for no reason, 'cause life have been really hectic.

Nineteenthly, I apologize for any spelling errors.



Now my mind is in a blank.




Byeall.

Stopped blogging for 17 days already.
Well, a good record.
But somehow I feel like writing something here now.
Still won't blog that often already though... for now.

So more than 2 weeks has passed since I last blogged.
And these 2 weeks felt like 2 days only.
Every week now past by so damn quickly.
It's like, on Thursday, I would amazingly recall what happened just a week before vividly,
as if it just happened a day ago.
And I will be thinking wow, Friday is just the next day.
However by the time I realize, it's already been the next week's Friday.
Time just seems to be passing by so fast now.
I don't know exactly whether it is good or bad.
It can be lesser time for us to study, or lesser time for us to rest...
Guess everything really has its good and bad sides, depending on how you look at it.

2 more weeks to the school holidays.

Can't really remember anything really interesting in the last 2 weeks
to blog about here.
Hmm... it's just normal school life everyday.
Glad that PI is finally over now though.

Sometimes I feel so bored.
Bored not only because I don't feel like doing work,
even playing games felt bored.
Feel like there's nothing which can interest me.
And just feel like sitting down there doing nothing.

Talking about interests...
Sorta suddenly realize so many people are pursuing their own interests.
Doing what they like, learning what they want to learn, enjoying what they do.
And people are slowly advancing towards their dreams.
So amazing that people can just pursue their interests,
no matter how hard it might be, how tiring it might be.
Maybe I can do it too, if not for my laziness.
Or maybe I should try to find my own interests first.

I think I shall stop here now.
Should try and study more...
At the very least, completing my homeworks.
Good luck to everyone and work hard.




Byeall.